Soul, Body, Self-love, Spirit and Humanity Spiritual
Dialogue
Reality of Hell, Heaven, Purgatory.
Life, death
and the last things
Spiritual Dialogue between the Soul, the Body, Self-love, the Spirit and
Humanity
First part
Chapters 01 02
03 04
05 06
07 08
09 10
11 12
13 14
15 16
17 18
19 20
21
Second Part
Chapters 01
02 03
04 05
06 07
08 09
10 11
Third Part
Chapters 01
02 03
04 05
06 07
08 09
10 11
12 13
FIRST PART
CONTAINING THE DISCOURSE OF THE SOUL WITH THE BODY AND SELF-LOVE;
AND ALSO OF THE SPIRIT WITH HUMANITY
CHAPTER I
The soul and the body propose to travel in company, and to take
self-love for a third party.
I saw, said the saint, a Soul and a Body conversing with one another;
and first, the Soul
said: My Body, God has created me to love, and to enjoy myself; I wish,
therefore, to go
where I can best accomplish this design, and to have you accompany me in
a friendly way,
since it will be to your advantage also. We will go through the world;
if I find anything which
pleases me, I will enjoy it; you can do the same when you find anything
which pleases you;
and let him do better that can.
The Body answered: Though I may be obliged to do whatever pleases you,
yet I see that
you cannot accomplish all that you wish without me. Therefore, if we are
to set forth together
let us come to a perfect understanding before we start, in order that we
may not fall out by
the way. For my own part, I agree to your proposal, but let each of us
be satisfied with the
success of the other when he meets with anything that pleases him, for
such forbearance,
will keep us in peace. I advise this beforehand, because I do not wish
that you should deceive
me, and say whenever I find something that I like: “I do not wish you to
linger here, for I
am going elsewhere to attend to my own concerns,” and thus I might find
myself obliged
to abandon my own plans in order to follow yours. In that case, I assure
you I should die,
and our design would be frustrated. To prevent this, I think it would be
well to take with us
a third companion, some just person who has no share in our partnership,
and to whom all
our differences could be referred.
Soul. I am well-pleased with this proposal; but who shall this third
person be?
Body. Let it be Self-Love, who lives with us both; he will see that I
have what belongs to
me, and I shall enjoy with him. He will do the same for you, and thus,
both will be satisfied,
each in his own way.
Soul. What shall we do if we find food equally gratifying to both?
Body. Let him eat who may. If there is enough for both there will be no
disagreement.
If there is not enough, Self-Love will give to each his share. But since
our tastes are so different, it will be most extraordinary if we should
find food equally pleasing to both, unless one
or the other should change; which is contrary to the nature of things.
Soul. By nature I am more powerful than you, and therefore I have no
fear of your
converting me to your tastes.
Body. But this is my home, where I have so many delightful things to
enjoy, that although
you may be more powerful than I, you could not possibly awaken in me the
desire to be
converted to yours. But I, being, as I have said, at home, might more
easily convert you to
my tastes, doing it from love and from a wish to please you, for you are
seeking things which
you neither see, taste, nor understand,—nor do you even know where your
home is.
Soul. Let us try the experiment; but, in the first place, we must make
some agreement
by which we may secure harmony. Let us take alternate weeks. When it is
my turn you must
do whatever is pleasing to me; and, in like manner, when yours comes, I
will do whatever
you wish, always excepting, so long as I live, whatever would offend our
Creator. If I die,
that is, if you induce me to offend him, I shall then be your servant to
do your bidding, for
in that case I shall be wholly converted to your wishes, and shall take
pleasure in whatever
pleases you. Being thus united, no one but God can ever interrupt our
union, for it will always
be protected by free-will; and both in this world and the next we shall
receive together the
reward of all the good and evil that we do. A like fate will be yours,
if I succeed in conquering
you.
But here comes Self-Love. You have heard the whole. Will you be our
third party, our
judge, and the companion of our journey?
Self-Love. I consent, and shall find it greatly to my advantage. I shall
give each of you
what belongs to him, for this will not injure me; and thus I shall live
on equal terms with
both. But if either of you should wrong me, and deprive me of my
support, I shall immediately
have recourse to the other, for on no account would I be deprived of my
own subsistence.
Body. I am not one who would ever abandon you.
Soul. Nor would I ever do so, especially as we all agree and understand
that, above all
things, we are to avoid offending God. Therefore, if either of us sins,
the others will check
the offender. Now, in God’s name, let us go, and I, being the most
worthy, will take the first
week.
Body. I am contented; guide me, and do with me whatever reason directs.
Self-Love and
I yield to you.
CHAPTER II
The Soul and the Body take their turns, in which each enjoys itself
according to its wishes
and tastes.
Then the Soul said within itself:
Soul. I, who am pure and without a stain of sin, will begin by
considering my first creation
and all the other benefits I have received from God. I know that I was
created for such
blessedness, and of such dignity, that I can almost soar above the
choirs of angels, and I find
myself in possession of a mind all but divine; for I am always drawn by
my pure intelligence
to the meditation and contemplation of divine things, and filled with
the constant desire to
eat my bread with the bread of angels. I am, in truth, invisible. I
would have, then, all my
food and all my delight in things invisible, for to this end was I
created, and here I find my
rest. I have nothing to do but to draw down from heaven the strength
which I need, and to
put all things else beneath my feet; I will, therefore, spend this
entire week in contemplation,
and take heed of naught else. Let him live thus who can do so; and he
who cannot must have
patience.
But I see that my companions are growing restless. I will go towards
them. Well, my
comrades, I have finished my week; do you, O Body! treat me in yours as
you see fit. But
tell me, how has it fared with you while I took my turn?
Self-Love. Not well; for into your regions neither Self-Love nor mortal
Body can enter.
We have had not the slightest nourishment and are nearly dead; now,
however, we hope to
have our revenge.
Body. Now it is my turn. Come, Soul, with me. I will show you how much
God has done
for me. Behold the heavens and the earth with all that adorns them; the
sea with its fish, the
air with its birds; and then, so many kingdoms, principalities, cities,
provinces, as well
spiritual as temporal: great dignities, numerous treasures; songs,
sounds, and food of every
kind for my support in never-failing supplies to the end of time, as
well as innumerable
other delights. And I can enjoy all these without offending God, for he
created them all for
me. You have not shown me your country as I am showing you mine. But as
I cannot have
my will unless you deign to indulge me in it, I venture to remind you
that you are under
great obligations to me, and that you must not think of going into that
country of yours,
and leaving me starving on the earth. You cannot do it, for I should
die, and it would be
your fault; you would offend God, and then we should all be your
enemies. I have the advantage of being able to enjoy all these things
while I live, and in the next life of enjoying
your country also, saving myself, as I shall do, by your means. Remember
that I am concerned
in your salvation, for I shall be always with you; and do not believe
that I desire anything
contrary to reason, or displeasing to God. Ask your comrade, Self-Love,
if I am not speaking
the truth. I would not be unreasonable in my demands, and I will abide
by his decision. I
am sure that what I am seeking for you, is not only needful, but also
agreeable to the will of
God.
CHAPTER III
How Self-Love blames both the Soul and the Body, and wishes to rule them
himself.—The
Soul complains, and the Body, adhering to Self-Love, demands what its
needs require.
Self-Love. I see your motives, which seem to me very reasonable when you
do not go
beyond the bounds of charity which God prescribed when he said: “Love
thy neighbor as
thyself.” But, in the first place, the Soul has made no account of us,
so that we have been
actually in peril of our lives; and, on the other hand, I have seen the
Body making too great
a display to the Soul, of things that are unnecessary to both. In short,
O Soul, you must restrain your impulses, and condescend to the
necessities of your neighbors, your Body, and
myself, if we undertake to live with you in that country of yours I have
found nothing for
myself; it is, in good truth, the very last of all places in which I
should choose to take up my
abode. As for you, O Body, it is enough for you to have the necessaries
of life, since superfluities are as injurious to you as they would be to
the Soul, were she to yield to you. But if
you give them up, each of you will be able to live moderately, and
according to his taste; I
shall find it possible to remain with you, and being thus united, each
will enjoy, with discretion, the advantages belonging to the others. If
you wish, O Soul, to avail yourself of the
Body, you must give it the requisite support, or it will complain; if
you nourish it, it will be
quiet, and you can use it as you please. In that case, both of you will
be at peace, and I shall
be obliged to go away, for I could not live with you. This is my
opinion.
Soul. I am greatly displeased and dissatisfied to be obliged to
condescend, in so many
things, to the Body; and I fear that feeding it, under this plea of
necessity, will lead to my
taking part in its gratifications, and thus finally losing the greater
for the less. Seeing both
of you so craving, makes me fear that you will give me so much to do,
that you will change
me from spiritual into earthly; for, after tasting earthly things, I
shall lose my relish for
heavenly ones. I fear, too, lest the intellect should be defiled and the
will corrupted. Help
me, O my God!
Body. It seems to me that Self-Love has settled the question, and we may
go on joyfully
in company. As far as you are concerned, O Soul, do not forget that God
would not have
created the things that he has created, if they were injurious to souls.
The Soul was endowed
with so much power and dignity, that she cannot be held back without her
own consent,
for her will is so much respected by God that He never forces it.
Neither I nor others,
therefore, can take anything from you but by your own consent. You hold
the reins; give to
each what he needs, and then let him complain who will.
The Soul. What are these necessities of which you speak as
indispensable? Tell me, that
I may, once for all, provide for them, and never think of them again;
the mere idea of them
greatly disturbs me.
Body. I must have clothes, food, drink, and sleep; and be served, and
amused, if you
wish me to be in a condition to serve you when occasion requires; when
you desire to occupy
yourself with spiritual things, you must not weary me, for if I am taxed
too much I shall not
be able to attend to your affairs. But if you will look after my
necessities, you can entertain
your mind with the thought that God, who has made so many delightful
things for this
mortal body, has provided much greater goods for you, O immortal Soul!
Thus God will
ever be praised, and each of us be satisfied in his own way. If any
difference occurs between
us, our Self-Love, who is so wise, will adjust it, and we shall all be
able to live together in
most holy peace.
Soul. Come, then; I will provide for your necessities, since I cannot do
otherwise; but I
suspect that you have joined against me. Yet your words appear so
reasonable that I am
obliged to submit although I distrust you when I hear you so often refer
to me, and say that
you can do nothing without me. Perhaps, by the help of God, I shall one
day escape your
hands, and live in his service without you.
CHAPTER IV
The Soul, the Body, and Self-Love pursue their journey, during which the
Soul cannot
complete her whole week, and the Body encroaches upon it.—The Soul
allows herself to be
persuaded by Self-Love under pretext of the necessities of her two
companions.—The Soul laments her condition and proposes not to take her
turn again.
Body. Let us go straight forward on our journey, and thus traveling
through the world
in harmony, each will accomplish his own business, seeking, according to
his condition,
support, food, and pleasure.
Soul. My turn has come again, but alas! I cannot do as I did at first. I
find myself drawn
to earth by the pressing necessities of others, for which I am bound to
provide; and thus my
time passes only half-improved, while I live with these my companions on
the best terms I
can. It seems to me a heavy mortification to be obliged to leave so
great a thing as divine
contemplation, in order to employ myself in providing food for animals;
so that the difference
between this week and the other is as great as between light and
darkness.
Body. This is my week, and I find myself almost famished through the
fastings imposed
upon me by the Soul. Yet I see that she condescends to my necessities,
and therefore, I must
take good care of myself and gain all the strength I can. Indeed I feel
better already. In this
way, I need not fear what the Soul may do to harm me during her week,
especially as she is
not able to keep the high stand she took at first, and thus I have not
only my own week, but
half of hers; and my needs, which she cannot but supply, are growing
greater every day.
Soul. O Self-Love! I see that I am robbed of my rights by condescending
to your endless
necessities, and leaving the right path by permitting myself to be led
by you, who are so selfseeking; in the end, we may find ourselves all
astray. Will you, then, who are the umpire,
tell me candidly what you think?
Self-Love. Soul, you have, without any cause, become so estranged from
us, that you
think it a great matter to condescend to the needs of others, especially
from the height to
which you had ascended. By degrees, however, you will become more
settled; and keeping
company with us will not appear so great a hardship to you as it now
does. Have no
doubts—God will provide. You are not to enjoy perfect happiness in this
life, but in the
next. Now take what you can get, and do the best you can.
Soul. I see not how I can defend myself, since I live with you, and you
are united against
me. It does me no good to take my turn, for your wants are so incessant
that you allow me
not a day’s rest, and so engrossing that I have no time for myself.
And when your turn comes, you wish to have everything according to your
own pleasure
and proclaim yourselves masters. I cannot but be a loser in the end, and
therefore, I think
seriously that I will try this plan no longer, but will let each one
provide for himself, and
find food where he can. I shall try to bear myself toward each of you in
the best way I am
able, since I have no choice in the matter, but must, perforce, remain
with you.
Body and Self-Love. In our judgment this will answer very well. We can
all live peaceably
without quitting our own spheres, the more easily, since you, O Soul!
have at length discovered your mistake.
CHAPTER V
The Soul yields to the allurements of the Body and of Self-Love, and
falls into the depths
of sin.—Of the little satisfaction she takes in earthly things, and the
trifles that are sufficient
to content the Body.—Of the troubles of the Soul.
And thus they went travelling through the world, each seeking to gratify
his own desires,
and living according to his own pleasure. The Soul looked after the
Body, and granted it
many things that it esteemed necessary; but, day by day, its appetites
increased, incited by
Self-Love, which bound them closely together, that they might not become
divided.
Everything appeared to them reasonable and necessary. They were never
willing to deny
themselves anything, and if they were not permitted to obtain every day
something new,
some fresh nourishment, they murmured, and complained that they were
injured. Thus
was the Soul finally led into an unfathomable sea of earthly love and
delight, which effected
in her so great a transformation, that she could no longer think or
speak of anything, except
according to the will of the Body and Self-Love. If she wished to turn
to her own concerns,
overpowered by her disorderly appetites, she dared not speak; and, in
her discontent, she
thus reflected within herself:
“If they should lead me as far into their own country as I led them into
mine, during
the first week, who will rescue me from their power? Without doubt, they
will, under the
plea of necessity, do with me whatever they see fit.”
Now this Soul, which still craved some support for her life, in order
not to fall into
despondency, as she had been created for love and happiness, trimmed her
sail to the wind,
although it was contrary, and finding herself no longer able to live in
her own region, she
still sustained herself, as best she could, saying, with some show of
truth: “This beauty,
pleasure, goodness, grandeur, and delight, together with all that adorns
created things, furnish
one means of knowing and tasting those that are divine;” and when she
had tasted them she
exclaimed: “Oh, how beautiful must be celestial things!”
And thus, still travelling with her two companions, she daily lost
something of her natural, divine instinct, and fed on the husks for
swine, as bestial as the body, so that, in a short
time, the three found themselves on very good terms with one another.
While they were journeying on, in such great love and harmony, without
any dissension,
we may imagine what became of the rights of the superior reason. Nothing
more was said
about it. All their attention was turned to earthly things, to temporal
pleasures, delights,
and loves; and spiritual things seemed so unpalatable to them that they
had no desire either
to speak or hear of them, lest they should interfere with their earthly
satisfactions. Thus they
continued for some time, until nothing remained to the soul but a little
compunction, which
she seldom noticed, although at times she did so when it remained her of
the risk she ran
of losing everything at death. This thought caused her great fear, but
when it left her she
returned to the same course as before. One thing alone was against her,
and that was, that
although her companions and herself were all agreed to satisfy their
appetites as fully as
possible, yet they were not able to do so; for the soul having a
boundless capacity, all finite
and earthly things could neither satisfy her nor give her peace; the
more she sought, the
more restless she became, because she wandered farther every day from
God, her true rest.
Yet earthly things so far blinded her that she believed she found peace
here below; she
strove, therefore, to keep herself continually occupied, in order to
satisfy herself, and when
she could not accomplish this in the manner she proposed, she became
disgusted, and, in
her interior blindness, tried something else. Thus passing from one
thing to another, and
from one hope to another, she forgot herself; and losing her time in
these pursuits, she
never obtained her wish, for so it was mercifully ordained by the Lord
God. And certainly
if man could find rest on earth, few souls would be saved, for they
would become so absorbed
in earthly things that they would make no effort to free themselves from
them. The Soul,
by her natural instinct, seeks enjoyment; and when she is blinded by the
Body, she procures
her pleasures through its means. So the Body leads her on from one thing
to another, as
they seek their food together; and though the Soul has an infinite
capacity, and cannot, by
means of the Body, find aught that will content her, yet she foolishly
allows herself to be led
by it, without receiving any satisfaction.
But the more the Body assimilates the Soul to itself, the more ways has
it to enjoy and
please itself with earthly things, since all its satisfaction comes
through the condescension
of the Soul; so that, if the Soul did not give her consent, the Body
would have neither enjoyment nor delight. But as the Body is so closely
united with the Soul, which cannot be contented with the things of
earth, and as it cannot further her wishes, nor yield her the enjoyment
she desires, therefore she is famished. And this is because the tastes
of the Body are
capable of satisfaction; for when its wants, of whatever nature, are
appeased, the appetite is
lost, and it can enjoy no more. It is true that it does not lose the
desire to seek new pleasures
in accordance with its natural tastes, but it can find nothing to
satisfy it entirely; not, indeed,
that the Soul will not condescend, nor that the health of the Body will
not permit, but only
because it has gone to the limit of its capacity, and hence both Soul
and Body are ill at ease.
The Soul is disquieted because she finds herself in this vessel of the
Body, so narrow
and requiring so little to replenish it, although whenever it is empty,
all created things seem
insufficient to fill it. She is obliged to remain in it, although she is
well nigh famished while
urged on by her natural instinct for enjoyment. This happens by reason
of the sympathy of
the Soul when she wishes to procure enjoyment by means of the Body, for
when she finds
that the Body is satisfied with a trifle, and that it cannot further
indulge itself because its
desires are blunted, she is distressed by this, and also, because she
cannot herself enjoy what
still remains to be enjoyed. The more she gratifies her tastes, the less
enjoyment she obtains
from them; for it is in vain that man strives to regain his lost
appetites, since he endangers
his life thereby. Therefore the Soul addresses Self-Love, in the
following words:
CHAPTER VI
How the Soul discourses further with Self-Love, proposing a new mode of
action.—Of the
nature of Self-Love.—Of the little required to satisfy the desires of
the Body.—How the Soul
falls into misery and despair.
Soul. O Self-Love! do you not see how we molest each other, and how
ill-fed we are?
You have made me yield to your appetites, and now I am wretched indeed.
I no longer
pasture in heaven, and you starve me to death on earth: how is it with
you?
Self-Love. I see that you are both dissatisfied, and thus far, not
without reason. Let us
go on, however, and perhaps we shall, by and by, find upon the road some
good that may
suit us all. I see plainly that this Body can consume but little, so
that I, too, am not supplied
with all the nourishment I am capable of taking. In one instant I devour
what would satisfy
the Body for a year, and how must it be then with you, whose capacity so
far exceeds mine?
This we will go: let us go in search of food better suited to us than we
have hitherto found,
give the Body as much of it as it requires (which is a trifle when
compared to our needs),
and then let it complain as much as it likes.
Soul. On what do you nourish yourself, and what can we find that will
satisfy us both,
and yet sustain the Body?
Self-Love. I have a great appetite; I feed both on earthly and on
spiritual food; but do
not take me to that place where you went the first week, but rather to
any other spot. When
I travel with any one and find enough to live upon, I seldom abandon my
company; I collect
such supplies that my followers are never in want, and I make them all
rich.
Soul. I know that there is not on earth food suited to us both, from the
fact that there
is not enough to satisfy us. We have wandered so far from heaven (where
there is food in
plenty) that I know and can find no way that will lead us thither again;
and I see that God
closed the door of this grace at the moment when we deliberated whether
we should feed
according to the tastes of his world, and has left us to gratify our
appetites. Now that we are
perplexed and discouraged about our pasturage, we wish to return to him
for our own benefit, and not through true and pure charity, which the
Lord requires from us, and by which
he always works in us. When I think of all I have done for you, and of
all that I have justly
lost, I see that I deserve to be abhorred by God, by you, by the world,
and by hell. I am almost
in despair through shame at finding myself led by you into the midst of
earthly things, in
which I believed I could find a supply for our joint necessities, while
we remained together
in this world. But, after trying everything, I find that not one of us
could be contented or
satisfied even if we had all we asked on earth. I have witnessed and
proved all your appetites,
and I have found that your way of quieting them greatly inflamed them;
and yet, that they
are so quickly satiated that after even a little gratification they were
disordered, although
there had been such an intense craving for that little. Yet, though
blunted, they were never
appeased. They were always finding themselves in the same condition.
When they seemed
satisfied I was famishing; and when I wished to return to my own
country, to gratify my
instincts, I found no cooperation as at first, for I had withdrawn from
my first path, which
was straight, clear, and open for all spiritual operations. Having
consented to this, by reason
of certain disorders of the Body, under the plea of supposed necessity,
at once superfluity
followed in the train of necessity, and shortly I was buried in sin; and
in this snare I lost
grace, became blind and dull; and from spiritual, wholly earthly. Now,
alas! I am in such a
condition that I can only move earthward, whereby I am drawn into every
evil, like one who
has wandered from his home. I leave myself to be led by you, O Body and
Self-Love, wherever
it pleases you, and you have carried me so far that I cannot even resist
your appetites.
You have, by degrees, so changed me, or I might rather say, perverted
me, that I feed
on the same food as yourselves; and we are so united and agree so well,
that I blindly fall in
with all your desires, and have, thus, from a spiritual soul become
almost an earthly body.
And you, Self-Love, are so closely bound to us, and keep us so closely
bound to each other,
that I, poor creature, am like one chained and stifled, and, as it were,
dead to spiritual things.
As if deprived of interior light and taste, I go on, gazing at and
tasting things earthly and
corporeal, and there is no good thing remaining to me, except a certain
secret remorse which
leaves me but little rest. Yet I continue neglecting myself, and
enjoying, as I may, these
earthly things which I feed upon, and wasting my time, while daily I
bring myself into
greater slavery; and the farther I withdraw from God, the more
dissatisfied am I with my
estrangement from my natural good, which is God himself.
Thus did this unhappy Soul often bewail her wretchedness, while yet she
was ignorant
of its cause. This was the divine instinct which she naturally
possessed; for the all-merciful
God never abandons one of his creatures while it remains in this life,
but often visits it with
some inspiration, by which man finds himself aided when he listens to
it, although, if he
resists it, he often becomes worse, by reason of his ungrateful neglect
of preventing grace.
This unhappy Soul soon became so burdened with sins and ingratitude,
with no visible
remedy, that she lost all hope of being delivered from them, and went so
far as not only to
take pleasure in sin, but even to boast of it. The greater were the
graces she had received, so
much the greater was her blindness of heart and her despair of doing
right; so that it was
impossible that, by any human means, she should ever obtain relief.
Nothing remained but
that God should rescue her by his infinite grace and goodness; for she
had now fallen so
low that all her desires, affections, interests, and delights, were
fixed upon earthly objects.
Everything else she hated and never mentioned, for she was so perverted
that what once
seemed sweet to her, now appeared very bitter, through the change of her
taste from heavenly
to earthly.
CHAPTER VII
Of the light which God gave to the Soul to discover all her faults, and
the state into which
she had sunk.—Of her submission, confidence, and conversion.
After God in his goodness had left the Soul to wander for awhile among
the things of
this world until she became disgusted (for she soon found by experience
that such things
could never satisfy her; but that, on the contrary, they became daily
more distasteful), this
merciful God sent a light which penetrated her intellect, and showed her
all the errors and
dangers into which she had fallen, and from which God alone could
deliver her. When she
saw just where she was, and what path she was pursuing, and that the
death of the body was
on one side, and the death of the soul on the other, and found herself
in the midst of so
many enemies whom she allowed to lead her like a beast to the shambles,
and even seemed
to go joyfully on her way, terror seized upon her and with a deep and
piteous sigh she turned
to God, and cried to him as best she could.
Soul. O wretched creature that I am! who will deliver me from all this
misery? God alone
is able: Domine, fac ut videam lumen, that I may escape these snares.
No sooner had she directed her thoughts to God, and implored his help,
without which
she saw she had no power to move, but could only go from bad to worse,
than suddenly her
confidence in him became firm, and she left him to do his own will in
what manner, and
so far as it pleased him; and she added:
Soul. From henceforth all that befalls me I will receive as from the
benign hand of God,
excepting my sins, for they are all my own; committing them is always
contrary to the divine
will, and therefore they are our own property; nothing is ours but
voluntary sin.
This firm resolution, made by the Soul before God, was secret and in her
own spirit
alone, without any outward demonstration. Now, when God sees that man
distrusts himself,
and places his whole confidence in Providence, he immediately stretches
forth his holy hand
to help him. He stands ever at our side, he knocks, and, if we open to
him, he enters; he
drives forth our enemies one after another, and restores to the Soul its
baptismal robe of
innocence; and all this God does in different modes and ways, operating
according to the
state in which he finds his creature. For the present we will speak of
his dealings with SelfLove, and how he purifies the soul from it.
CHAPTER VIII
Of many illuminations received by the Soul, and of the pure love of
God.—Of conscience,
and the remorse which God awakens in it.
When God wills to purify a soul from self-love, he first sends her his
divine light, that
by it she may discern a spark of that pure love wherewith he loves her,
and how much he
has done and still does by means of this love; for he has need of us in
nothing, not even the
least thing. We are his enemies, not only by our nature, which is
inclined to evil, but by our
manifold offences, which we are ever ready to repeat.
He also discovers to her that our sins can never excite his anger so far
that he ceases to
do us good while we are in this world; rather does it seem that the more
our sins remove us
from him, so much the more does he seek to draw us toward himself by
many incentives
and inspirations, in order that his continued love and his benefits may
keep us still in his
love. The better to effect this, he uses countless ways and means, so
that every soul, beholding
what he has done for her, may exclaim, full of admiration: “What am I
that God seems truly
to have no care for any one but me?”
And, among other things, he discovers to her that pure love with which
he created us,
and how he requires nothing of us but that we should love him with that
same love wherewith
he has loved us, and that we should remain ever with him, expecting no
return except that
he may unite himself to us.
And he shows her how this love was chiefly proved in the pure angelic
creation, and
afterwards in that of our father Adam, created in his purity and
sincerity by that divine love
of his, wherewith God desired to be loved and obeyed; for if he had not
required submission
in something from Adam and his posterity, such was the excellence in
which they were
created that each one could have believed himself a god, by reason of
the rare gifts bestowed
on both the body and the soul, and of the dominion given him over all
created things; but
God placed him under a slight restraint only, in order that he might
ever know his Maker,
and render him obedience.
God, moreover, made known to this Soul that he had created man for the
highest good,
namely, that with soul and body he might enter into his heavenly home.
He also showed her how great an evil is sin, into which she had herself
fallen, and for
which there was no remedy but another manifestation of his love, which
he was obliged to
make in her behalf. And he further instructed her in that ardent love
for us of which our
Lord Jesus Christ gave such proof on the earth, from the Incarnation
even unto the Ascension,
and all to save us from eternal damnation.
All this did God, by his most pure act, reveal in an instant to the
Soul.
She then saw the liberty in which he had created her, not subjecting her
to any creature,
but to her Creator alone; for he had given her free-will, over which,
while she remains in
this world, nothing on earth or in heaven has any power.
He allowed her to see the great patience with which he had waited for
her, and borne
with so many of her sins, in which, if she had died, she would have been
lost forever.
He reminded her how often she had been in danger of death; and how,
through pure
love alone, he had rescued her, that she might have time to know her
error and escape
eternal damnation.
He also reminded her of the many inspirations he had given her to save
her from sin,
and although she had not only disregarded, but even gone contrary to his
will, yet in his
goodness, he did not cease to send them, now in one way, now in another,
and so allured
her free-will, that he had, as it were, forced her to do that which in
his goodness he required.
And this, too, he did so gently and patiently, that no example of human
love was ever known
on earth, which could compare with it.
God also made known to this Soul that, by reason of the great love he
bears him, his
anger is never inflamed against man, but that he always loves him, and
is ever seeking to
unite him to himself in love; and that on his side this instinct never
fails, so that his pure
love, which ever burns yet never consumes, is always active on our
behalf, and he shows
himself terrible only toward sin. Moreover he hates nothing but sin,
which alone prevents
his love from doing its work in us; for even the devils, if it were not
for the heinousness of
their sins, would burn with divine love.
God made plain to her, also, how he is always waiting to inflame and
penetrate the
hearts of men with burning rays of love, and how he is thwarted by sin.
Therefore, if sin is
taken away, all things are in peace; where sin is, there is never aught
but strife.
She saw, likewise, the love of God for man, which, however great a
sinner he may be, is
never so entirely extinguished as not to bear with him while life lasts;
beyond that, all is
hatred and never-ending wrath.
She saw, too, a ray of his mercy shining into hell; for the wicked
deserve infinite punishment for an infinite time; but the divine mercy
has made the time only infinite, but has
limited the extent of the punishment, and therefore a greater one might
justly have been
inflicted.
This Soul also beheld a certain ray of love issuing from that divine
fountain, and darting
towards man with a force as if to annihilate him; and she saw that when
it found impediments,
then, if it were possible for God to feel pain, he would suffer the
greatest of all grief. This
ray aimed only to penetrate the soul, and it was her own fault if she
were not penetrated by
it, for the ray surrounded her on all sides, seeking entrance; but the
soul, blinded by self love, did not perceive it. And when God saw a soul
self-condemned, who through her willfulness would not give entrance to
the light, he seemed to say: “So great is the love which I
bear to this soul, that I desire never to abandon her.”
This is because the Soul, deprived of divine love, becomes almost as
malignant as the
divine love is good and gracious: I say, almost, for God still grants it
a little mercy. She heard
these words, also: “So great is the love I bear thee, that I would never
willingly see thee lost;
gladly would I suffer for thee, if I could, but love and evil cannot
dwell together, and therefore
I must abandon thee; and as through me thou wouldst have become capable
of all blessedness,
so, abandoned by me, thou wilt be capable of all wickedness.” So many
operations and effects
of love were shown to this Soul, that words fail to narrate them.
Touched by this ray, the Soul saw and felt a certain flame of love
proceeding from that
divine source, which, for the moment, left her like one bereft of sense,
without understanding,
without speech, without feeling. In that pure and simple love, as God
manifested it to her,
she remained at that moment wholly absorbed, and never more did this
sight depart from
her memory; always she beheld that pure, divine love turned toward her.
She was then shown how she had lived without the knowledge of this great
love, and
how great were the faults in which she saw herself, and what she could
do to correspond to
this pure love; and so humbled was she in her own eyes that she would
have publicly proclaimed her sins through the whole city, and could do
nothing but incessantly repeat these
words: “O Lord! no more world, no more sin,” with a cry of inward
anguish which came
from the depths of her heart.
But all that she beheld did not prevent the other vision of that first
love infused by the
ray from doing its work within her; so that her mind was lost in that
pure love in which she
saw all things, especially those imperfections which were to be removed.
Yet she did not
estimate her sins according to the punishment they merited, but rather
as committed against
the great mercy of God, for she saw his pure love for the Soul, and it
remained always in
her heart, continually drawing her towards God, from whom it descended.
This love so
melted her that all her actions were done with that purity which now
dwelt in her; and she
continued so united with that ray, that nothing inferior to God could
come between that
light and the soul, either as to the will or its effects.
CHAPTER IX
The Soul speaks to Self-Love and the Body of the truth she had seen, and
tells them that
she should be lost if she followed them.—She warns them of her purpose
to do to them what
they had designed to do to her, namely, to subject them to herself.—Of
the disgust they felt at
this.
After the Soul had seen the many things so skillfully, purely, and
carefully wrought in
her by love she paused, and said to the Body and Self-Love:
Soul. My brothers, I have come to know that God is about to do a work of
love on my
behalf and therefore I shall take no more heed of you, your needs, or
your words, for I surely
know that if I heed you I shall perish, although I would never have
believed it, if I had not
experienced it. Under the appearance of good and necessity, you have
wellnigh led me to
the death of sin, and have done all you could to bring me to perdition.
Now I intend to do
to you what you have wished to do to me, and I shall hold you in no more
respect than if
you were my deadly enemies. Never expect to be on good terms with me
again,—give up
all hopes of it as if you were among the lost. I shall strive to return
to that path which I first
entered, and from which you caused me to swerve by your deceits. I hope,
however, through
the divine light, that you will deceive me no more, and in the meanwhile
I shall do all things
in such a manner, that the necessities of each will be satisfied. If you
have led me to do what
I ought not, in order to satisfy your appetites, I will lead you to what
you do not desire, in
order to satisfy the spirit. I shall not spare you, even if you are worn
out, even as you spared
me not when I was so enslaved by you, that you did with me according to
your pleasure. I
hope to bring you into such subjection to myself as to change your
natures.
The Body and Self-Love were greatly displeased when they found that the
Soul had received so much light that they could no longer deceive her.
Body and Self-Love. We are subject to you, O Soul! let justice be done,
and be the rest
according to your pleasure. If we cannot subsist in any other way, we
can live by violence;
that is, you will oppose us as much as you can, and we will do all we
can to injure you, and
in the end each will be rewarded according to his deserts.
Soul. I will say one thing for your consolation: for a time you will be
greatly dissatisfied,
but when I have deprived you of your superfluities (which will distress
you very much), you
will be satisfied with all I have said and done, and you will
participate forever in my welfare;
dispose yourselves, therefore, to patience, for in the end we shall all
enter into the divine
peace. At present I will supply your necessities only, but afterwards
you will have everything
you desire. I will lead you to a joy so great and so secure, that you
will wish for nothing more
even in this life. Hitherto you have had nothing whatever in which you
could take any satisfaction, and now, having tried all things, I hope to
bring you to a place of the greatest happiness, which will have no end.
It will begin, and go on increasing, until at length there will
be such peace in the soul that the body too will feel it, and it will be
enough to mitigate the
suffering not alone of one, but of a thousand hells. Before this can be
attained, much remains
to be done, but (with light and help from God), we shall come out safely
on every side; let
this suffice for your encouragement. Henceforth I shall not speak, but
act.
Body. You appear so terrible to me, and have made so deliberate an
attack on me, that
I fear you will go to some excess, to the injury of us all. I wish,
therefore, to recall some
things to your remembrance, and discourse with you concerning them, and
then I will leave
you to act your own pleasure. I would remind you that after the love of
God, comes the love
of the neighbor, which begins with one’s own body and its concerns, and
you are bound to
preserve it not only in life but in health. If you fail to do so, you
cannot succeed in your
designs. I am necessary to your existence, for when I am dead, you will
have no means of
adding to your glory, nor time to purify yourself from all your
imperfections, and purgatory
must do this for you. That kind of penance you will find very different
from bearing with a
body in this world. As to health, when the body is sound, the powers of
the soul and the
bodily senses are in a better state to receive divine light and
inspiration, even through the
sense of taste, which, in the soul’s esteem, passes for a superfluity.
Now, if I am infirm, these
things and many others that I could name would fail you, even as time
fails me to enumerate
them. I have said to you what seems to me most important both for your
interest and mine
that each may have his due, and both reach the port of salvation,
without reproach in
heaven or on earth.
Soul. I am made aware of all that is needful to me, interiorly by the
divine light, and
exteriorly by your reasons, and many more that might be thought of. But,
henceforth, let
me hear no more reasoning, or external persuasions, for I wish to give
my attention to superior considerations, which are of such a sort that
they can do injustice to no one, but will
rather give to each all that he needs, so that none can complain, except
of his own imperfections. Whoever complains, shows that he is not yet
well-ordered, and that his appetites are
not in subjection to reason. Leave all this to me, O Body, and I will
make you change your
opinion. You shall live in such content that you could never believe it,
did you not experience
it.
I was once mistress, when I first turned my thoughts to spiritual
things; but afterwards
I was deluded into making myself your equal, and we made with Self-Love
a compact to do
good, but only in such a manner that one should not take advantage of
the other; by degrees,
however, you so contrived that I became completely enslaved, and could
do nothing but
what was pleasing to you. Now, I am determined to be mistress again,
with this understanding, that if you are willing to become my servant, I
shall be contented, and you shall want
for nothing that a servant needs. But if you will not be my servant, I
shall compel you to
become my slave, and so completely my slave, that you will be willing to
serve me for love,
and thus will all our opposition end, for in every way I will be served,
and will be mistress.
CHAPTER X
Of the view which the Soul has of the goodness and providence of God.—Of
her faults and
imperfections.—Of her esteem of herself and hatred of her Humanity.
And thus this enlightened Soul began to see all her irregularities and
the perils, both of
the spirit and the flesh, which she had unawares encountered, and to
which she would have
fallen a victim, had not the divine Providence interposed. She was
overwhelmed with astonishment at the great mercy of God towards a being
so deeply plunged in sin. But when man
begins to see the goodness and providence of God, then God shows him
also all his defects,
for which he will supply the remedy, and the soul perceives them in an
instant by that divine
light, the light of pure love. The Soul, having these two clear views,
so definite and precise,
the one of the goodness of God in his bounty, granted in virtue of love,
and the other of
herself, plunged in sins, and voluntarily acting in opposition to the
infinite goodness of God,
took thought and said:
Soul. O Lord! never more will I offend thee, nor do anything in
opposition to thy
goodness; for this thy great goodness has so overpowered me and drawn me
so closely unto
thee, that I have resolved never more to withdraw from thy disposal,
even should it cost life
itself.
Then this Soul looked within, and seeing all her defects and evil
instincts, said:
Soul. Does it seem to you that you are prepared to present yourself
before your Maker?
How is it with you? Who will deliver you from all your difficulties? Now
you see how
wretched and vile you are, although you believed yourself so beautiful
and good. And this
happened because you were so blinded by Self-Love, that you believed in
no other paradise
than that of sensual delights. And now, behold how all these things
appear in the divine
presence—truly no better than the work of the devil!
Then this Soul turned with a deep and bitter hatred toward Humanity, and
said:
Soul. I warn you, O Humanity! that if henceforth you speak to me of
aught unseemly,
you shall suffer for it. For the future, I shall treat you as if you
were an evil spirit, for you
have ever been, and ever will be, diabolical in your behavior, since
nothing else is known to
you. And as you now see as well as I what a terrible thing it is to
offend God, I know not
how you will ever have the courage to think or speak according to your
own natural appetites,
when you know that you are thereby acting contrary to his will; however,
should you do so,
I shall inflict a penance upon you that you will not speedily forget.
When Humanity heard the Soul utter these words, and became conscious of
the greatness
of her offences, she answered not a word, but stood with downcast looks,
like a criminal led
to justice.
CHAPTER XI
How the Soul turns to God and perceives her own sinfulness, and also
what she would
have become had she continued her former course.—Almost in despair she
bewails her offences.—Of the confidence with which our Lord inspires
her, appearing to her spirit; and of
the wound she receives.
The Soul then turned towards God, and in that clear light spoke thus:
Soul. O Master! what has moved thee to give such light to this Soul, so
blind and so
corrupt, thy enemy, who goes astray from thee, ever feeding upon sensual
things, and who
is so unwilling to be lifted out of that condition, that she always
shuns whatever would elevate
her? I am stupefied when I consider myself—a creature so entirely vile!
And while in this condition it was given her to see where she was,
whither she was going,
what would have been her end, and what she would have carried with her
to that end had
she persevered in her course. She saw at a glance all these things as
they were, and as they
would have been if God had not interposed. At which sight she was beside
herself with fear
and agitation, and could do nothing but weep, and sigh, and inwardly
lament, thus bewailing
her sad condition:
Soul. Oh, wretched and most miserable! had I continued in this course,
how many trials
and sorrows should I have brought upon myself in this world; and in the
next have found
myself the enemy of God, and condemned eternally to hell!
For a time this vision remained with her, and caused her such interior
suffering that
she could neither think of other things nor perform any cheerful action,
but remained in a
settled melancholy, and knew not what to do with herself, for she could
find no rest; neither
in heaven, which had no place for such as she, nor on earth, for she
merited that it should
swallow her up; nor did she feel that she had a right to appear among
men, or to take heed
of aught that concerned her comfort or discomfort. She saw that she
alone had done all the
evil, and earnestly desired that alone, and without help from any other
creature, she might
make satisfaction to the extent of her power; and for this reason she
said:
Soul. I see that hell is my place, but I cannot reach it except through
death. Alas! my
God! what will become of me? I know not where to hide myself: I wander
on, lamenting,
and find no place of rest, for I am so stained with sin that I cannot
appear where thou art,
and yet I find thee everywhere. In this condition I am insupportable to
myself. What, then,
shall I do with this foul and tattered garment in which I find myself
clothed? Tears are useless,
sighs do not help me, contrition is not accepted, penances are
fruitless; for nothing will
satisfy for my sins if God will not be merciful and come to my
assistance.
Thus the Soul remained almost in despair, powerless to make
satisfaction, unable to
have recourse to the mercy of God (for she found in herself nothing
which could give her
confidence, yet was not able wholly to despair), tormented within
herself at the sight of the
heavy burden which she carried, in agony of spirit at the evil she had
done; she grieved interiorly, yet was unable to shed a tear, only heaving secret sighs which
wellnigh consumed
her life. She could neither speak, eat, sleep, smile, nor look up to
heaven. She had neither
spiritual nor natural feeling; nor did she know where she was, whether
in heaven or on earth,
but was like one stunned and senseless; gladly would she have hidden
herself that she might
not be found, nor be obliged to enter into the company of others.
So abstracted was she, and lost in this vision of the offended God, that
she no longer
seemed a rational creature, but like a frightened animal. And this
happened because it was
given her to see the greatness of her sins and the ruin that they
caused—a sight which, had
she beheld it longer, would have consumed her body had it been adamant.
But when God had left her to contemplate it until the impression could
never be forgotten, he came to her assistance as we shall here relate.
One day in her dwelling our Lord Jesus Christ appeared to her interior
vision, bleeding
from head to foot, so that the blood seemed pouring in a stream from his
body as he passed;
and in secret she heard these words: “Seest thou this blood? it is shed
for love of thee, and
in satisfaction for they sins.” At these words she was pierced with a
deep wound of love for
him, our Lord Jesus Christ, and at the same time her confidence returned
and banished her
despair, so that she began to rejoice a little in our Lord.
CHAPTER XII
How God once more manifested to the Soul the love with which he had
suffered for
her.—She sees the malice of man and the pure love of God.—Of the
offering, which she makes
of herself to God, and of the wound she receives.—Of the five fountains
of Jesus.—Of his constant and jealous watchfulness.
Another sight was shown her, greater than the first, so much greater
that no tongue
could describe, nor intellect imagine it, and it was this: God showed
her the love with which
he had suffered for love of her. When the Soul saw this most pure and
strong love wherewith
God loved her, she was pierced with a wound so deep, so keen, that it
made her despise
every other love and everything that could interpose between herself and
God, except it
were God himself. In the light of this love she saw the malignity of man
the the benignity
of the pure love of God. These two visions never again faded away from
her memory, and
the one revealed to her the other; for, beholding the infinite mercy of
God performing such
works of pure love towards man, the Soul would have fainted from excess
of delight if any
more had been manifested to her. Such a vision, moreover, made clear to
her the malice of
man, seeing that great love of God continually employed in her behalf,
almost, as it were,
in spite of herself; for God, looking not at the sins that she
committed, never ceased in his
mercy to do her good in many ways, being moved by none of her offences
but rather with
pure love repairing them, always watchful for her benefit. Hereupon the
Soul, turning towards
herself, saw how sinful she had been in acting in opposition to the
great goodness of God.
And then she began to see the nature of man, with all his malice, as bad
almost as God is
good. But at this sight she fell into despair of herself, for man seemed
to her the demon,
with all his malignity; and if God had not in part veiled the sight,
both Soul and Body would
have fainted with fear. Hence as at the former vision of the divine love
towards man she
despaired within herself, as believing it to be irremediable, and
wishing to lose no more time
in seeking for a remedy, she turned, as her sole confidence, to God, her
Love, and said to
him:
Soul. Lord! I give myself to thee. I know not what I am fitted for but
to make a hell by
myself alone. O Lord! I desire to make this compact with thee: I will
give this sinful being
of mine into thy hands, for thou alone canst hide it in thy mercy, and
so dispose of me that
nothing of myself can any more be seen. Occupy me wholly with thy love,
which will enlighten in me every other love and keep me wholly lost in
thee, holding me so engrossed by thee
that I shall find neither time nor place for self.
Her most sweet Lord made answer that he was content, and from that
moment all
thought and memory of self was lost, so that it never more disturbed her
peace. On the
other hand, a ray of love so burning and penetrating was infused into
her heart and wounded
her so deeply that in an instant it bereft her of every attachment,
appetite, delectation, and
natural quality that ever did or ever could belong to her. She was shorn
of everything, though
CHAPTER XII
not without her own consent, by virtue of her correspondence with the
love revealed to her,
and by this she was so powerfully drawn that it astonished, absorbed,
and transformed her.
She sighed and lamented far more than when she beheld what a sinful
creature she was.
This ray of love passed into her soul with the impression of the five
wounds of Christ,
as five fountains from which were flowing forth drops of blood and
burning love for man.
God gave her also the power to discern readily the nature of man; and
she beheld alternately
the one sight and then the other, so far as she could look upon them
then the other, so far
as she could look upon them and live. The sight of herself caused her no
suffering, for her
merciful God had relieved her of all sorrow on that account, and yet she
saw herself plainly,
and in what manner she was upheld by God. If ever God had left her to
herself, she comprehended that she would have been ready to fall into
all manner of wrong doing, for she saw
herself as perverse as the evil spirit himself; but, finding herself in
the hands of God, it was
not possible in such good hands to feel any fear.
But the sight that tortured and consumed her was of that burning, divine
love towards
man; she said that no human tongue could describe how inflamed she was
with that glowing
fire. The love that God manifested to her made her instinctively reject
whatever was displeasing to him, with a jealous watchfulness against the
least defect; and her eyes were opened
not to her sins only, but to her slightest imperfections and unnecessary
practices. She heeded
not the world, the flesh, nor the devil. All the devils who opposed her
were not so strong as
this soul in her union with God, who is the true strength of those who
fear, love, and serve
him; and so much the more because she did not perceive how she could be
injured by self,
it being in the hands of God and upheld by his goodness.
CHAPTER XIII
Of the instinct which led her to cast off every superfluous thing, and
even that appear necessary.—Of her instinct for prayer and her
mortification.
An instinct was given her to despise herself, and to hold everything
under heaven in no
more esteem than if for her it did not exist. This love gave her the
further instinct to deny
the body not only all superfluous food but also many things that
appeared needful, and the
same with regard to clothing, and all society, whether good or bad. She
was led into solitude
of mind and body, and was reduced to herself alone. An instinct for
prayer was also given
her, so that she would have remained for hours together, on her bare
knees, to the great
discomfort of Humanity, which, although it resented and disapproved of
this, did not refuse
to serve the Soul, and to follow wherever she led.
All these instincts were called into action by God alone, for the Soul
had no wish or aim
but God, who had taken the direction, and wished to regulate all her
desires and inclinations,
and free her from all those that were human and worldly by giving her
contrary ones. She
was deprived of the use of fruits for which she had a natural
inclination and an especial
fondness. She ate no flesh nor anything superfluous, and when she needed
food, that which
she might eat appeared to be always at hand. That she might lose all
relish of what she ate
she was taught to carry always about her some dust of aloes, and when
she found herself
taking pleasure in any food or preferring one kind to another she
secretly sprinkled it with
a little of the bitter power before eating it. Her eyes were always cast
down; she never laughed,
and recognized no one who passed her, for she was so occupied with what
was taking place
within that her sense of exterior things was, as it were, dead.
She seemed ever discontented, yet was ever most content. She tried to
rob herself of
sleep by placing rough objects in her bed, but God would not permit
this, for however she
resisted it, sleep overcame her against her will. When Humanity saw all
this spiritual ardor,
and that itself was no more esteemed than if it were not, and that there
was no help for it,
it was greatly dissatisfied, yet, like a thief in prison who dares not
utter a word in his own
behalf because he knows the crime he has committed, it feared to make
the matter worse,
knowing that Christ, the Judge, was in anger against it. One hope it
could have (and but
one was possible), as when it is raining there is hope that bad weather
will soon be over, and
with this poor hope it waited in patience; but the Spirit in its
vehemence restrained Humanity
by so many bonds that it could find no relief but in sleep, and became
withered, colorless,
and dry like a stick; on this account the following conversation took
place one day between
the Spirit and Humanity:
CHAPTER XIV
Of the words that passed between the Spirit and Humanity.—Of the
complaints made by
Humanity against the fervor of the Spirit which she thought she could
endure no longer.
Spirit. Tell me, Humanity, what think you of this mode of life?
Humanity. It seems to me, Spirit, that you have entered upon this course
so vehemently
that you will hardly be able to persevere in it; I hope that death, or
at the least, infirmity,
will not fail to follow, and that perhaps sooner than you think; and
thus you will not be able
to attain what you are seeking in this world, but will be obliged to go
to purgatory, where
you will suffer more in a moment than you would here in a whole
lifetime. I shall be in the
grave, and that will be far better for me than to live in this world.
You will go into that fire
where it will be worse with you than with me. Retrace your steps; I have
no more to say.
Spirit. I hope that neither death nor infirmity will follow: at present,
however, you are
at the height of your misery. From this time forth you are purged of all
bad humors; abstinence has been good for you; I see that your color and
flesh are gone; the divine love will
soon have consumed everything; I know that if I do not provide you with
food you will
wither away, but I will make such provision that everybody will be
satisfied without calling
on death or infirmity.
Such light was given to the Spirit that she perceived the least thing
that might be injurious
to her, and at once removed it. Humanity did all that was required of it
without offering
any resistance, for the spirit was so powerful that otherwise it would
have fared all the worse.
Finding itself in this situation and wholly without comfort, it said
within itself:
Humanity. If I could have a little nourishment from spiritual things,
and were able to
content myself with what satisfies the Spirit, it would comfort me;
otherwise I know not
what to do, nor how to remain patient, thus tormented and imprisoned.
While occupied with these thoughts it chanced that the saint found
herself in a church,
and received communion, and there came upon her a ray of spiritual light
with such force
that both Soul and Body seemed to have entered together into life
eternal (according to
those words: Cor meum et caro mea exultaverunt, etc.). So great was the
illumination and
the feeling of divine things which they enjoyed that even Humanity
feasted upon them, and
said:
Now in this way I could live, but when that moment had passed, and this
new vision
had been seen by her in the light of pure love, she began to exclaim:
Oh, Master, Master, I
ask no sign from thee. I ask not for sensible delights, rather would I
flee from them as from
demons, for they are hindrances to pure love, which should be bare, lest
man should with
spirit and with body attach himself to it under the pretext of
perfection. I pray thee, Lord,
give not such things to me, they are not for me, nor for him who desires
pure love in its
simplicity.
CHAPTER XV
Humanity complains that the Spirit does not keep its promises and the
Spirit defends itself
against this charge.—Of the perils of spiritual delights under the
semblance of good, and how
they are more dangerous than bodily pleasures, which are evidently
contrary to the Spirit.—Of
the threats of the Spirit against its Humanity.
When Humanity found how hateful to the Spirit was that food upon which
it fed and
hoped always to feed, it was greatly dissatisfied and turned again to
address her. It seemed
to the body that there was no just cause why nourishment should be
refused it, and especially
now that it had become spiritual, for the Spirit had promised that the
time would come
when it too should be satisfied with the things that were according to
the spirit; but, finding
the contrary to be the case, and that the Spirit had no desire even for
spiritual food and unwilling to regale the body with it, Humanity spoke
as follows:
Humanity. You do not keep your promises, Spirit, and it will be
impossible for me to
persevere in such austerity without some nourishment, either natural or
spiritual.
Spirit. You complain, and, as you think, with reason: I will, therefore,
explain myself.
You have misunderstood me. I did, indeed, promise that in the end you
should be contented
with what contents me, but you are looking for what will fatten, and not
for what will satisfy;
and not for what will satisfy; and because I am not pleased with this
sensible delight, nay,
even abhor it, I would have you abhor it also. You still have natural
cravings for this pleasure,
and you think I ought to gratify them; know that I wish to deaden and to
regulate them that
they may desire only in accordance with my pleasure: it is plain that
you are unfirm, and I
shall treat you as a sick person should be treated. What you desire
would injure your health;
and since you affirm that spiritual delights are given by God and cannot
do harm, know
that your intellect partakes also of sensuality and therefore you are
not a good judge; my
desire is to devote myself to love, pure and simple, which attaches
itself to nothing which
can excite either a natural or a spiritual sentiment or feeling, and I
declare to you that I
dread far more an attachment to a spiritual than to a natural delight.
This is because the spiritual recaptures man under the pretext of being
a good, and it is
impossible without great difficulty to make him understand that it is
not one; thus he continues to nourish himself on that which weans him
from God. But in good truth I tell you
that these hinges must of necessity be shunned by him who wishes to
enjoy God as simply
and purely as may be, for they are like venom to the pure love of God;
and spiritual pleasure
must be fled from as from the devil himself; because wherever it fastens
itself it produces
incurable infirmities which man does not perceive; but, believing that
he is well, sees not
that he is hindered from perfect good, that is, God himself, pure,
simple, separated from all
things human.
But natural gratifications, being evidently contrary to the spirit,
cannot be disguised
under the appearance of good, and I do not fear them as much. The
contentment and the
peace that will give you are that which will satisfy me, and which, I am
certain, will also
satisfy you; but it is impossible that you should yet attain it, being
still far too impure.
I wish first to cleanse the house and then to adorn and fill it with
good things, which
will satisfy us both but nourish neither. And because you say that you
cannot endure this,
know that I must compel you to endure it; what cannot be done in one
year can be done in
ten. I am not sorry to combat with you, being willing to subdue you by
any means; I wish
to free myself from this constant goading at my heels, for otherwise it
will never be well with
me. You are gall and poison in every viand that I attempt to taste, and
until I have destroyed
you I shall never be at peace, for you seem bent upon doing your worst.
I too shall do what
is possible to free myself quickly from you; yet the worst that I can do
to you will but redound
to your benefit and advantage. I warn you not to get angry with me, for
you can never obtain
your desire and purpose in that way, but rather the contrary; console
yourself with patience
unmixed with hope. Conform for the present to my will—hereafter I may do
yours.
CHAPTER XVI
Humanity prays the Spirit to act justly and with equity, reminding her
that she had been
the first to sin and that the body had been merely the instrument.—The
Spirit proves the
contrary, and shows who has been the cause of their fall.—The Spirit
demonstrates also the
necessity of purification here, and that it is better to suffer for a
thousand years in this world
than one hour in purgatory.
Humanity. I am, as you see, very dissatisfied and unhappy; I can escape
from what you
wish neither by reason nor by force; yet I implore you to satisfy me in
this matter, and then
you may continue what you have begun and I will have what patience I
can. Oh, Spirit, you
who are bringing me to justice, I pray you deal justly with me. You know
that I am only a
body, bestial, without reason, without prayer, without will, and without
memory; because
all these are in the spirit, and I work as an instrument and can do
nothing but what you will.
Tell me; have you not been the first to sin, with the reason and with
the will? Have I been
more than the instrument of sin, truly conceived and resolved upon in
the spirit? Who,
then, deserves the punishment?
Spirit. Your reasoning seems at the first sight to be very good; yet I
believe I can refute
it satisfactorily, as I intend to do.
If you, Humanity, never have sinned and never can sin, as you maintain,
God, who has
made the body to accompany the Soul wherever she goes, to heaven as well
as to hell, must
be as unjust judge; for, whoever does neither good nor evil should have
neither reward nor
punishment; but, since it is impossible for God to be unjust, it follows
that my reasoning is
sound. I confess I was the first to commit sin, for, having free-will, I
cannot be constrained
against it, nor can either good or evil be done if I do not first
consent. If I resolve upon the
good, heaven and earth yield me their support, and on every side I am
encouraged to perform
it; it is not possible that I should be impeded, either by the devil, or
by the world, or by the
flesh.
If I am bent upon evil, I find also support on every side, from the
devils, the world, and
myself, that is, from the flesh and its malignant instincts; and since
God rewards all that is
good and punishes all that is evil, it follows that all who aid in doing
good will be rewarded,
and all who aid in doing evil will be punished. You know that in the
beginning I wished to
follow my spiritual inclinations, and commenced with great impetuosity;
but you assailed
me with so many reasons and under the plea of such pressing necessity,
that we were in
continual conflict with each other; then Self-Love came as a mediator,
disagreed with both,
and led us so far astray that to please you and supply your needs I left
the right path, and
for this we shall be justly punished. It is true that if that great
misery, mortal sin, is found
among us, which God forbid, I, as the chief and the most noble, shall be
more sorely tormented than you, but we shall both wish that we had never
been created. Therefore it behooves
us to purify ourselves, not alone from every stain of sin, but also from
every smallest imperfection which we have contracted through our evil habits. I will tell
you, moreover that God
has given me a light so subtle and clear that of a surety, unless I fail
before I leave you, there
will remain in me no single taint of imperfection either of soul or
body.
Note this well: How long, think you, will this season of purification
last? You know well
that it can endure but a short time. In the beginning it seems terrible
to you, but as it goes
on you will suffer less, because your wicked habits will be destroyed;
do not fear lest you
should want powerful support, for know that God, by the decree of his
goodness, never allows
man to suffer beyond his strength. If we regarded our own proper good,
it would seem
better to us to suffer here for a little than to remain in torments
forever; better to suffer for
a thousand years every woe possible to this body in this world, than to
remain one hour in
purgatory. I have briefly made this little speech for your comfort.
CHAPTER XVII
God pours into and diffuses throughout the soul a divine sweetness,
whereat she complains,
not desiring any proof of love.—God, notwithstanding, leaves her plunged
in a sea of divine
love.—He gives her, also, a vision of pure Love, and another of
Self-Love and of her own evil
inclinations.
When the Spirit had thus satisfied Humanity, it left her and returned to
its first simple
and pure object, steadily pursuing that intimate and penetrating love
which was so interiorly
restrained that it left Humanity scarcely any breath for either natural
or spiritual things, so
that she seemed like one beside herself.
From the time that God established her in pure and simple love, he began
to try this,
his creature, with suitable temptations, mostly spiritual. He infused
into her the great
sweetness and divine tenderness of a most sweet love, and both Soul and
Body were so
overpowered by it that they could scarcely live. But as the eye of love
sees all, suddenly the
Soul beheld these great things, and she commenced to grieve and to say
that she did not
wish for such sweetness and delight in this present life, nor desire
these proofs of love because
they corrupt love itself.
I will guard myself, she said, as far as I am able, and neither approach
them nor provide
any quiet and solitary spot where I might feed upon these things, for
they are poison to pure
love. Yet God pursued her and kept her in the fountain of this divine
sweetness; and however
much the soul might protest against these proofs of his love, she
nevertheless remained
plunged in them as in a sea; not always in one vision, but in many and
diverse.
One of these visions was that God showed her a ray of that purest love
wherewith he
himself loved the Soul; and the sight was such that if he had not
tempered the amorous
flame with a vision of Self-Love with which, the Soul saw herself
stained, she could not have
lived.
He showed her at another time a vision of herself, that is, of her evil
inclinations, so
contrary to pure love, and thus tempered that devouring flame; for after
beholding it she
would have rather died than offended his love in the least, not alone by
sin but by imperfection. The Soul, thus occupied, neither thought nor
even wished to think of her body any
more than if she had none, and in this way was relieved from its
annoyances, and habituated
it to do her will.
CHAPTER XVIII
Humanity laments and asks for something to do.—The Spirit consents and
enjoins upon
it that it should be obedient to all things, stopping at nothing for any
pleasure or displeasure
that it might feel therein.—Of the rules he wishes to observe; and of
the prohibition he imposes
upon it of forming no particular friendships.
When Humanity perceived that its path became daily narrower, it again
addressed the
Spirit, and said humbly and with great fear and reverence:
Humanity. I find that you have deprived me of every human, external
consolation, so
that I may count myself as dead to the world; and if you persevere in
this strictness, I see
that the time will come when I shall desire death rather than lead any
longer such a life.
Spirit. I am willing to give you something external to do, but it will
not be agreeable.
You will even abhor it, but if you complain it will be the worse for
you.
Humanity. I shall be entirely satisfied if only I can have some
employment.
Spirit. I warn you in the outset that I wish to teach you what it is to
be obedient, in order
that you may become humble, and subject to every creature; and that you
may be trained
to this, you shall labor for your own support. I wish, further, that
whenever and wherever
you are called to perform works of mercy, you should go to the infirm
and to the poor of
every condition. I wish you never to refuse.
You will do, as if by instinct, all that I command you, even to nursing
the most loathsomely diseased persons, and whenever you are called to
this duty, even should you be
conversing with God, I wish you to leave all and go quickly to your work
and wherever you
are led; never regard either the person who summons you or the work you
are to do. I wish
you to have no choice; rather let the will of every other creature be
yours; let your own be
always thwarted.
In these exercises, so terrible to you, it is necessary to employ you,
because I wish to
extinguish in you every inordinate pleasure or displeasure which it is
possible to feel in this
life. I will root out every imperfection, and allow you to pause for
either pleasure or pain
no more than if you were dead. This I will see for myself, for it is
necessary to try you, and
therefore I shall put you to every needful proof; when I give you
something abhorrent to
you to do, and see that you so feel or regard it, I shall keep you at it
until you do neither. I
shall do likewise in those things from which you might obtain any
consolation. I will force
you from them until you lose all sense of pleasure or pain that might
proceed therefrom.
And to try you in all possible ways, you shall always be occupied in
that which is either
pleasurable or painful.
Moreover, you will neither form any friendship for any one, nor retain a
special regard
for your own kindred; but you will love every one without partiality and
without affection,
the poor as well as the rich, friends as well as kindred. I would wish
you not really to know
one from another, to make friends with no one, no matter how religious
or spiritual, or to
seek intimacy with none. Let it be enough for you to do your duty, as I
have told you, and
in this way I wish you to conduct yourself in your conversation with
creatures on the earth.
CHAPTER XIX
Of the poverty in which the Spirit compelled Humanity to live.—How she
was obliged to
visit the poor and sick.—Of the suffering she found among them.—Of the
oppression and interior distress which she experienced.
After the Spirit had thus discoursed with Humanity, she found everything
ordered for
her in the following manner: In the first place, she was reduced to such
poverty that she
could not have lived, if God had not provided for her by alms.
When the Ladies of Mercy requested her, according to their custom, to
visit the poor
for various charitable purposes, she always went with them among these
wretched beings,
many of whom were intolerable from the filth and vermin with which they
were covered,
and some of them in their misery and want would break forth in fearful
exclamations of
despair, so that the entrance to their dwellings seemed like the
entrance into a sepulchre,
frightful to every human being. In spite of this she was eager to draw
near and even touch
them, that she might do something for their bodies and their souls.
There were some among the infirm who, beside their uncleanness and
offensiveness,
were always complaining of their attendants and loading them with abuse.
She visited, too, the poor of St Lazarus, where the greatest suffering
was to be seen, as
if the Spirit sent her there in search of all sorts of misery and woe.
She found her task far
worse than she believed, and was assailed, as it were, on both sides,
namely, on the side of
Humanity, which loathed these miseries, and by the Spirit, which was so
lost to every external
impression as to be unable to hold converse with creatures.
Humanity was so overawed by the Spirit, and thrown into such
consternation by all
these things, that she knew not what to do. For, on the one hand, when
she was assailed by
the Spirit, she would have done anything to escape its power, and when
she afterwards beheld
the misery of these poor creatures, she would gladly have fled from
them, and yet could not.
Everything was distressing to her, especially when she found that the
Spirit required of her
to devote herself to her work, without agitation or disgust, as she
would take bread and put
it into her mouth when she was hungry. And thus poor Humanity had all
these difficult affairs
on her hands, without a single remedy. No one could have looked upon
her, in such fearful
conflicts, without great compassion; but because these things were done
for the attainment
of liberty of spirit, everything that was required of her became easy of
execution.
CHAPTER XX
Humanity having tried both exterior suffering and interior distress, the
Spirit allows her
to choose between them.
When the Spirit had given Humanity a trial of all the misery above
described, and made
her to understand all that was to be done, he thus addressed her.
Spirit. Now that you have seen for yourself what before you had only
heard of, what
will you do? You have tried both ways, and one of these you must pursue.
You may choose
for yourself, however, but with the condition, that I will make you live
with creatures in a
state of great subjection, as long as it shall please me; in subjection
so great that you will
have no place in the world where you can turn for the least repose, and
I shall look to it that
this shall soon begin.
Humanity. I have seen and tried the two extremes, and however great and
terrible are
the miseries I have witnessed, heard of, and endured, yet I would choose
rather to live in
the midst of them than in the piercing light of that divine ray. I fear
both exterior suffering
and that interior divine light which terrifies me still more; and hence
I am in great perplexity.
Spirit. If you choose one of these you will not have the other; but
still I warn you that
you will lose everything superfluous, in order that I may live, so far
as possible, pure and
disengaged, as I was created; to accomplish this, I shall disregard
whatever opposes me.
Humanity. Since you are so determined, all further talk would be a loss
of time. I submit
to all you require, and give myself up into your hands, as one dead yet
still alive. Would that
I were dead.
The Spirit, wishing to annihilate Humanity yet further, and finding that
to approach
the filth and vermin of the poor, and to touch them, overcame her with
disgust, said to her:
“Take some of this vermin, put it in your mouth, and eat it, if you wish
to free yourself from
this loathing.”
When Humanity heard this, she was aghast for a moment; but she resolved
at once to
obey, and so doing was hence forward free.
These things were so contrary to Humanity, that no effort of nature
could make them
endurable; yet when she had forced herself to comply, her contentment
was so great that it
gave her courage for the future, and she was able to endure the outcries
and complaints of
impatient persons, and practice every kind of self-denial.
Thus the Spirit exercised her for about three years, all the while
occupying her interior
in such a manner that she performed all these acts without any interior
consciousness of
them, and she was made to persevere until she ceased to care for them.
CHAPTER XXI
The Spirit brings Humanity to consent to take up her abode in a
hospital, where she served
the sick in the humblest manner, doing everything that she was ordered
to do.—When she
became accustomed to whatever she naturally most abhorred, she was made
directress of the
hospital, and was gifted with the prudence necessary for this
office.—How the burning flame
of love ever increased within her.
The Spirit now obliged Humanity to take another step, requiring great
submission of
mind and body; namely, she was directed to live in the hospital, with
her husband, and devote
herself to the service of the sick; and here she was under the authority
of these who governed,
as if she had been their servant, hardly daring to speak, living quietly
in one of the apartments,
and obedient to all that was imposed upon her. When a charge was given
her she fulfilled
it with alacrity, although she was held in no esteem by the inmates. But
of all this she had
no interior recognition, for she was wholly lifted above herself, and
hereupon said to the
Spirit:
Humanity. If you wish me to perform these works, give me the power to do
them. I refuse
none of them, but they must of necessity be done with some little
accidental love, or they
will be ill done.
Accordingly some interest in her work was granted her, for which and
with which she
continued it, but it was only given just at the point where the work in
which she was engaged
required it, then it was taken from her, together with the memory of the
work; and in these
employments, and in great poverty, the Spirit left her for many years.
When the Spirit had disciplined Humanity, by such trials and
humiliations, until she
was able to look not only without disgust upon things which at first she
naturally loathed,
but busied herself unweariedly and willingly with whatever was most
offensive, she was put
to another trial, being placed as superior in charge of this hospital,
that it might be seen if
her humanity would anywhere discover itself, by reason of this
elevation. She was tried by
the Spirit, in this way, for many years, aided by him, however, with all
needed hints and
suggestions, without which she could not have fulfilled this charge. And
with all these employments she remained recollected in that love which
was secretly increasing as Humanity
was destroyed, for just so far as she became rid of Self-Love, did she
become possessed by
pure love, which penetrated and filled her in proportion as she became
dead to self. And
thus this soul, burning with pure love, melted in that divine flame, and
as this continually
increased, the soul was always consuming with love; therefore she
discharged all her duties
with alacrity, never resting, that she might forget the flame that
devoured her more and
more. She never could speak of this to any one, but she talked of it to
herself, unheard by
others.
Now the Spirit having thus taken possession of her, said: “I will no
longer call her a
human creature, so entirely do I behold her in God, and with nothing
human remaining.”
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SPIRITUAL DIALOGUES PART SECOND
Containing what God, and also the Spirit spoke to the Soul. Of the
admirable ways by
which God deprived her of all things and destroyed her imperfections.
CHAPTER I
Of a new love which God poured into her heart, by which he drew her
Spirit to himself.—The Soul follows it, so that her powers are absorbed
and lost in this love, and the Body,
being subject to the Soul, becomes bewildered and changed from its
natural condition.
After this creature had been despoiled of the world, of the flesh, of
her possessions,
habits, affections, and, in short, of everything but God, it was his
will to deprive her of herself
also, and to separate the Soul from the Spirit by a suffering so acute
that it is difficult to describe it or to make it understood by one who
has not experienced it. God infused into that
heart a new love, so ardent and so powerful that it absorbed into itself
the Soul, with all her
powers, so that she was raised above her natural condition and so
constantly occupied
within herself that she could no more take delight in anything nor look
toward heaven or
earth.
This Soul was unable to correspond with the body, which being thrown out
of its natural
condition, stood bewildered, not knowing where it was, nor what to do or
say. By this new
method, unknown, and as yet not understood by any creature, strange and
new operations
were then effected. It was as if a chain were extended, by which God,
who is Spirit, draws
to himself the spirit of man, and holds it absorbed in him. The soul,
which cannot exist
without her spirit, follows, and is also thus absorbed. There she
remains, unable to do otherwise, so long as God binds the spirit to
himself. The body, being subject to the soul, is
deprived of its natural ailment, which without her aid she cannot
receive, and is thrown out
of its natural state. The spirit, meanwhile, is in the fit condition for
that end for which it
was created by God; and, stripped of all things, it rests in him as long
as it is his good
pleasure, provided that the body can endure it and live.
The soul and the body then return to their natural action, and having
been refreshed
by the repose of the spirit, God again elevates it to its former state,
and in this manner the
animal imperfections are by degrees destroyed, and the soul, thus
cleansed, remains pure
spirit, and the body, purged from its evil habits and inclinations, is
also pure and fitted to
unite itself, without hindrance to the Spirit in due season. This work
God effects by love
alone, which is so great that it is incessantly seeking the profit and
advantage of this Soul,
his beloved.
But the special work of which I speak, God performs without the aid of
the Soul, and
in the following manner: he fills her with a secret love, which deprives
her of her natural
life, so that the work carried on in her is wholly supernatural. She
remains meanwhile in
that sea of secret love which is so great that all who are drawn within
it sink overwhelmed,
for it overpowers the memory, the understanding, and the will: and to
these powers, thus
submerged in the divine love, all things else which approached them
would be their hell,
for they have been deprived of the natural life for which she Soul was
created.
Such a soul, while yet in this life, shares, in some degree, the
happiness of the blessed;
but this is hidden even from herself, for it is so great and high that
she is unable to comprehend it, exceeding as it does the capacity of her
powers, which look to nothing beyond, but
rest satisfied and submerged in this sea of love. When created things
are spoken of, her facilities, like fools, are powerless and lifeless,
not knowing where they are; so hidden is this
work in God. The further it advances, the more contented and strong to
bear all that God
pleases to accomplish in it, does the spirit become; but it comprehends
no more on the account, for the soul, as if dead, knows nothing of this
work nor takes any part therein.
But the body, which must needs live on this earth while God is bringing
the soul by its
means to her destined perfection, how can it exist, alienated in all
things from its natural
condition? It can no longer use the understanding, the memory, or the
will, for earthly
purposes, nor does it take pleasure in spiritual things. It will live,
then, in this way, in great
torments: but God, whose works this is, is not willing that any but
himself shall take part in
it, and we shall now explain the means he uses.
CHAPTER II
In what manner God keeps the Soul occupied in his love.—Of the weakness
of the body
and of the support it receives from creatures.—Of the extreme sufferings
of Humanity, which
it bemoans without complaining, being interiorly conformed to the will
of God.—And how
purgatory in this life is severe and sweet and full of mercy.
Sometimes this occupation of love was lightened and the Spirit allowed
to take a breath,
and to communicate with the Soul and the Soul with the Body, so that the
senses of both
were in a condition to receive some aid from created things, and were
thus revived. But
when God withdrew the Spirit into himself, all the rest followed it, the
body remaining, as
it were, dead, and so estranged from its natural state that when it
again returned to it, it was
entirely exhausted and could receive no help from any creature. Humanity
could neither
eat nor drink nor give any sign of life, so that it was led as a little
child who can do nothing
but weep. It could not enjoy that which nature desires, for it was
deprived of taste and drawn
out of its natural state.
When the Soul had remained awhile in this condition, she turned toward
her Lord with
bitter lamentation, and said to him:
Soul. Oh, my Lord, hitherto I have been in entire peace, contentment,
and delight, for
all my powers were in the enjoyment of the love bestowed on me by thee,
and seemed as if
they were in Paradise. Now they are driven from their home and find
themselves in an unknown and strange country. Formerly the intellect,
the memory, and the will, were conscious
of thy love in all their operations, which they performed according to
thy ordination, with
great satisfaction to themselves and to all with whom they had to do:
this was through thy
sweet concurrence, which gave a zest to every act. Now I am naked and
despoiled of all
things and deprived of the power to love and to operate as I was wont to
do. What then shall
I do, living and yet dead, without understanding, without memory, and
without will, and
what is worse, without love, bereft of which I did not believe it
possible to live, since man
was created for love and for enjoyment, especially of God, his first
object and his last end?
This operation, which I behold for the first time, deprives me of love
and of joy, and I
am lost in myself, not knowing what to do or say. Oh, how hard and
intolerable it is to live
thus, especially since I see that all my powers accord with one another,
having found repose
in God, their object and their end; and although they are ignorant of
this work, yet in their
ignorance they remain content!
But abandoned and deserted Humanity, how shall it live, parched, naked,
and powerless?
It has eyes and sees not; nostrils and smells not; ears and hears not;
mouth and tastes not;
a heart and cannot love! Every mode of life is found in that hidden
love; but how is he to
live to whom that love brings death, whose senses are all awake, but who
cannot use them
as others do?
And therefore, Humanity said, lamenting:
Me, miserable, alone in this world, what shall I do? I shall live in
wretchedness, and
none will have compassion on me, because this work will not be
recognized as that of God,
inasmuch as I must needs live, almost continually, in a different way
from others, whether
they be seculars or religious, and do things that will be looked upon as
folly. There remains
neither order nor regularity in my life, and for this reason it will
rather scandalize than
edify.
Alas! alas! that I should behold a work so cruel to Humanity! It is as
if I were in a heated
furnace, with the entrance closed, neither dead nor alive, and in dread
of being reduced to
ashes; yet I complain not, for interiorly I am in conformity with the
will of God, who holds
me in this condition according to a design neither known nor
comprehended by the Soul
herself; but the effect is shown in the execution of the work. It is
Humanity which feels the
torment, without complaining; yet if it could lament it would be
refreshed.
Oh, what a sweet and cruel purgatory is this hidden one on earth! It is
sweet in comparison with the purgatory of the life to come, but to us it
appears cruel when we see a body
on this earth suffering so intolerably. Yet what seems cruelty to us is
truly a great mercy of
God, although a hidden and unsuspected one. To him who is enlightened,
this work is
evidently done by love only the blind would endeavor to escape it, but
in vain. We are all
sinners, and how much better is it to be cleansed here than in the other
life! For whoever
suffers purgation in this life pays but a small portion of what is due,
by reason of the liberty
of his free-will cooperating with infused grace. God never subjects man
to this discipline
until he has obtained from him his free consent. For a moment it is put
before him, and
accepting it of his own free-will, he puts himself into the hands of God
to be dealt with according to his pleasure. But this is hidden from
Humanity.
The Spirit having given consent, God binds the Soul unto himself, and
thereafter it remains in these bonds, which are never broken. All this
is done without Humanity, which
must be subject to the decree of God and the good pleasure of the
Spirit. And when it finds
itself in such subjection, it cries aloud like one who is suddenly
wounded, and because it
does not know the end, it is left to its lamentations while God
continues his work, giving
no heed unto its cries.
CHAPTER III
Humanity, thus menaced, desires to know the cause.—This is promised
her.—God, while
seeking men, draws them by different means and inspirations.—Of her
continual sorrow.
How, in her affliction, she calls upon God to relieve her by one ray of
his love.—When she
comes to understand the grace God has given her, she is pierced by a new
dart of love.—Of
her confession and contrition.
Humanity, finding itself menaced by various sufferings, through which it
must needs
pass, being unable to defend itself, sought to know the cause for which
it must endure a
martyrdom without alleviation. It was answered interiorly, that a
release would be granted
in due season, and it became as one sentenced to death, who, having
heard the sentence
pronounced upon his evil deeds resigns himself to an ignominious end and
thus sometimes
escapes it.
“In my infinite and ever-active love,” spake God, “I continually go
forth in search of
souls, in order to guide them to life eternal; and, illuminating them
with my light, I move
the free-will of men in many and diverse ways. When man yields to my
inspirations, I increase
this light, and by its aid he sees himself imprisoned, as it were, in a
foul and dismal den,
surrounded by a brood of venomous reptiles which strive to destroy him
but which he saw
not before by reason of the darkness. By the light I grant him, he sees
his peril and calls upon
me to free him in mercy from the miseries which hem him in on every
side. I am ever illuminating him more and more, and, as his light grows
clearer, and he discovers more plainly
the dangers which surround him, he cries aloud and with bitter tears: ‘O
my God! take me
hence and do with me what thou wilt. I can endure all things if thou
wilt release me from
this misery and peril!’”
It appeared to this Soul that God turned a deaf ear to her lamentations;
but he increased
her light daily, and with its growth her anguish likewise deepened, for
by it she saw not only
her own danger, but that no way of escape was open to her. Long did she
cry to God for
help, for so he had decreed, and though he gave her no reply, he yet had
regard to her perseverance, and kindled in her heart a hidden fire,
while at the same time he reveled to her
her imperfections. In this manner she was for a season restrained and
overwhelmed in her
own wretchedness. She ate no other bread, and lived in continual sorrow;
moreover, as the
light of grace increased, the flesh was consumed away and the blood
cleansed from its superfluous humors. She was so weakened and afflicted
that she could scarcely move, and in her
desolation she cried aloud to God: Miserere mei Deus secundum magnam
misericordiam
tuam (Psalm 50).
And God, when he saw her entirely abandoned to his mercy and despairing
of herself,
revived her with a ray of his love whereby he made her see anew the
magnitude of her defects,
and that hell alone was their fitting retribution. She recognized,
moreover, the singular grace
which God had bestowed upon her, and as she beheld it, she was pierced
afresh with love
and grief at her offences against such great goodness. She began to
confess her sins with
such deep and extraordinary contrition that she seemed ready to perform
every possible
penance of soul and body.
Contrition, confession, and satisfaction, are the first works of the
Soul after it has been
enlightened by God. By this means she is freed from her sins and
imperfections, clothed
with virtue, and remains thus until she has formed the habit of virtue.
CHAPTER IV
God sends into that heart another ray of love, which, diffusing itself,
fills the soul and revives the body.—There is nothing but exceeding love
and joy, until this love, which is wholly
from God, has completed its work.
God once more infused into the Soul another ray of love, and by its
superabundance
the body also was refreshed, and there was nothing but love and
rejoicing of heart, for the
Soul believed herself in paradise. In this state the Soul continued
until every love except that
of God was entirely consumed, and with his love alone she remained until
she was wholly
absorbed in him. He bestowed upon her many graces and sent her many
sweet consolations,
upon which she fed as do all those who share the divine love. He spoke
to her also in those
loving words which, like flame, penetrate the hearts of those who hear
them. The body,
moreover, was so inflamed, that it seemed as if the Soul must quit it in
order to unite herself
with her Love. This was to her a season of great peace and consolation,
for all her nourishment was the food of eternal life.
In this state she feared neither martyrdom nor hell nor any opposition
or adversity that
might befall her, for it seemed to her that with this love she could
endure all things. O loving
and rejoicing heart! O happy soul that has tasted this love! Thou canst
no longer enjoy or
behold aught beside, for thou hast attained thy rest for which thou wert
created! O sweet
and secret love: whoever tastes thee can no longer exist without thee!
Thou, O man! who
wert created for this love, how canst thou be satisfied and at peace
without it? How canst
thou live? In it is comprised all that can be desired, and it yields a
satisfaction so entire that
man can neither obtain it for himself nor even conceive it until he has
experienced it. O
love! in which are united all bliss and all delight, and which satisfies
all desire!
Whoever could express the emotions of a heart enamored of God, would
break every
other heart with longing, although it were harder than the diamond and
perverser than the
devil. O flame of love! thou dost consume all rust, and so completely
removest every shadow
of defect that the least imperfection disappears before thee. So
perfectly dost thou thy work
in the Soul, that she is cleansed even from those defects that are seen
by thine eye alone, to
which even that which seems to us perfection is full of faults.
O Love! thou dost wholly cleanse and purify us; thou dost enlighten and
strengthen our
understanding, and dost even perform for us our necessary works, and
this through thy
pure love alone which meets with no return from us.
And now this Soul, filled with astonishment at beholding God so enamored
of her,
questions him concerning his love.
CHAPTER V
The Soul asks concerning this love.—Our Lord in part answers her and
discourses to her
upon its greatness, nature, properties, causes and effects.
Soul. O Lord! what is that soul which thou holdest in such esteem and
which we value
so little? I would that I knew the cause of thy great and pure love for
the rational creature
whom I behold so contrary in all things to thee!
Our Lord listened favorably to her request and thus replied: “If you
were to know how
much I love the soul, you would never know aught further, for you would
either die or
continue to live by a miracle. And if you were able to compare your own
misery with that
great love and goodness which I never cease to exercise toward man, you
would live in
despair. So powerful is my love that the knowledge of it would
annihilate not only the body
but the soul of man, if that were possible. My love is infinite, and I
cannot but love that
which I have created; my love is pure, simple, and sincere, neither can
I love except with
such a love.
“To him who could in the least understand this, every other love would
seem, what in
truth it is, an aberration. The cause of my love is only love itself;
and because you cannot
comprehend, it be at peace and seek not for what you cannot find. This,
my love, is better
comprehended by an interior sense than by any other way, and to acquire
this the action of
love must wholly detach man from himself, for he is his own worst
impediment. This love
destroys malice and fits man to understand the nature of love.”
O admirable work of love, which gives God to man that he may do all that
is needful to
attain that perfection for which he is designed! God gives him, too, all
needful light and
grace, increasing them gradually in such a manner and to such a degree
that they never fail
and never exceed; for if they fell short, man might excuse himself from
doing his part because
grace was wanting to him, and if they exceeded, the work he might have
done through their
means but failed to do, would be his punishment.
Grace increases in proportion as man makes use of it. Hence it is
evident that God gives
man from day to day all that he needs, no more and no less, and to each
according to his
condition and capacity. All this he does for the love and benefit of
man; but because we are
so cold and negligent in our endeavors, and because the instinct of the
spirit is to arrive
quickly at perfection, it seems as if grace were insufficient. Yet it is
not so, and the fault is
wholly ours, in not cooperating with the grace already received, which
therefore ceases to
increase.
O wretched man! how shall you be excused for failing to correspond with
that great
love and care which God has always bestowed and still bestows upon you?
At the hour of
death you will behold and know all this, and you will then be speechless
through astonishment. Then the truth will be made plain and you will
have no power to contradict it. Shame
will overpower you for having failed to do your part in response to all
this aid, this grace,
this loving care of your Lord, who, in order to satisfy your other
request, speaks to you thus:
CHAPTER VI
God reveals to the Soul that the body is to be purgatory for her in this
world.—How necessary it is that man should deny himself and become
wholly lost in God.—Of the misery of man
when he occupies himself with aught beside, since he has no time but the
present to acquire a
treasure of merit.
The Lord. The cause of all the suffering through which you have to pass
is better understood by experience than by reasoning. Yet know this: I
make of the body a purgatory for
the soul, and thus augment her glory by drawing her to me through this
purgatory alone.
And thus I am ever knocking at the door of the heart, and if man yields
consent and opens
to me, I lead him with continual and loving care to that degree of glory
for which I created
him. If he could see and understand the care with which I promote his
salvation and his
welfare, quitting and despising all ease, even were the universe at his
command, he would
abandon himself without reserve to me.
There is no martyrdom that he would not endure, if it would preserve him
from losing
this loving care which is leading him to the highest glory. I would draw
him to me by love
and faith alone, to which fear and self-interest are opposed, because
they spring from the
love of self, which cannot coexist with that pure and simple love which
alone must absorb
man if he would not cast off my care of him. Without this aid he could
not enter into the
clear depths of my love, for it would be a hell to him. And man, having
no other way and
no other time but this life in which to purify his soul by love and
faith, and with the assistance
of my grace, is it not a misery for him to occupy himself with aught
beside, and thus lose
the precious time which was given him for this work alone? Once passed,
it will never more
return. Listen then, O Soul, my beloved! listen to my voice; open thine
ears to thy Lord who
so much loves thee, who is ever caring for thee, and who alone is thy
salvation! Steeped in
sin as thou art, sunk in such misery and weighed down with evil habits,
thou wilt never
know the greatness of thy woes until my light unveils them to thee and
frees thee from them!
Soul. Thou hast given me, Lord, many persuasive reasons why I should
suffer as I have
done and must still do; yet, I pray thee, if it please thee, satisfy my
understanding concerning
the cause of this suffering, for I need it greatly when I am overpowered
by the vehemence
of thy love.
The Lord. Thou knowest that when thou didst yield up thy will to me thou
wert sunk
so low that had I not prevented thee thou wouldst have fallen into hell.
Thou wert borne
away into sin and misery like one bound hand and foot. I granted thee
light and contrition,
by the help of which thou didst make thy confession. Thou hast performed
many penances,
and for a long time offered prayers and alms in satisfaction for thy
sins. I left thee to struggle
and torment thyself until thou wert well established in virtue, that
thou mightest not hence
forward fall into sin. I allowed thee to practice various virtues in
order that thou shouldst
be confirmed and take pleasure in them and never more turn to other
enjoyments.
And now the Soul began to delight in spiritual things, and was assailed
by many
temptations, and was thus practised in the ways of God. The providence
of God was also
made plain to her in many trials and persecutions which she endured from
men, from devils,
and from herself. For, being accustomed to wrong-doing, it was necessary
for her to combat
all these enemies until she had destroyed them, inasmuch as it is they
who were ever warring
against her. And if it were not for our evil habits no one would ever be
tempted except in
consequence of the increase of grace, and this is a temptation which is
without danger, because God sustains by his love those upon whom he
permits it to fall.
CHAPTER VII
The Soul, confirmed in virtue, begins to rest in her Lord.—God permits
her to see that
loving operations whereby, through his great goodness alone, he had
liberated her.—The Soul,
perceiving her own miseries, burns with a continual flame and is unable
to speak or thing of
aught besides.
When God had despoiled this Soul of her evil habits and clothed her with
virtue, and
had well instructed her in the spiritual life, she began to rest in her
Lord. Her battle and her
servitude being ended, she was filled with a great joy, especially when
God opened her eyes
to see how greatly he had assisted her, and how he had defended her from
her enemies, both
visible and invisible, and from herself, who was the worst of all. The
Soul, discerning the
providence of God, and finding herself entirely freed from her interior
trials, began to turn
towards her Lord, who, designing to raise her to a higher state, caused
her to behold with
the eye of divine love the loving operation which he had accomplished in
her. When she
beheld his great and watchful care she was lost in astonishment, and
considered what God
was and what she herself was; that is, how low she was in misery and
sorrow and how his
goodness alone had rescued her by pure and simple love, and prepared her
by amorous
modes and ways to receive his divine love. This vision made her confess
with bitter tears
her woes and sins; and the love which God manifested to her continued to
inflame her in
such a manner that she could speak and think of nothing else. And in
this state she remained
until all other loves, both spiritual and natural, were entirely
consumed.
And because the love of God, inasmuch as it is lonely and remote from
other loves, is
so much the greater, and more vehemently occupies the soul (for it is
ever increasing, and
works secretly, not only on others but also on itself), therefore the
Soul, finding herself in
this state, enjoyed all things, interior as well as exterior, in peace,
in love, and in delight; for
she did not yet know the way by which God intended to lead her, although
she was approaching it. And God spake thus to her:
CHAPTER VIII
Our Lord makes known to the Soul that she had merited nothing, having
employed in
purifying herself the time which was given her to increase in grace and
glory.—Also he shows
her that without his help she could have done nothing.
The Lord. My daughter, hitherto you have followed the odor of my
perfumes, which
have guided and supported you thus far upon your way; but without me you
could have
done nothing. In this way, my grace assisting, you are purged from your
sins, despoiled of
your affections, habited in virtue, burning with love, and as it were,
united with me in love,
and so full of delight, both inwardly and outwardly, that you seem to
yourself to be in
paradise.
But understand that hitherto you have merited nothing, for whatever you
have done in
the way of penance, fasting, alms, and prayers, you were obliged to do;
it was needful for
you to perform them all by my light in order to cancel your debts. And
having not the means
wherewith to satisfy, I have granted you these through love for you,
that you might by them
make satisfaction: and know, that all this time which you have spent in
satisfying for your
sins is as if it were lost, for it was given you that you might increase
in love, grace, and glory;
therefore, you have merited nothing, although it may seem to you that
you have done great
things, and such as are highly esteemed by those who do not understand
them.
It was also necessary that you should be clothed with the virtues which
attract love, that
they might protect you from evil and prepare you to receive greater
light; and knowing that
of yourself you were unfit for any good work and also incapable of it, I
have given you (in
order that you might work and persevere in work) a hidden love, by whose
operations all
your facilities and also your bodily senses should be voluntarily
disposed to make satisfaction.
I have given you, moreover, the power to love me, in order to detach you
from every other
love, and finally I have conducted you to the portals of my true and
perfect love, beyond
which you have not advanced, for to do so is beyond your strength. And
with all this you
are not yet content, for you have the instinct to advance, although you
know not even what
you desire.
CHAPTER IX
The Spirit, seeing the Soul brought to the gates of divine love,
resolves to subject both Soul
and Body to severe suffering.—He tells the Soul that he will separate
himself from her, and
that in order to recover her first purity, she must pass through many
trials.
When the Spirit saw the Soul led to the portals of divine love, from
which she was neither
able to advance nor to recede, and saw, moreover, that she had been
conducted thus far
with much assistance from God, who had pleasantly occupied without
wholly satisfying all
her facilities, he thus spake:
Spirit. Now is the time for me to repay the Soul for what she has done
to me. For many
years I have been subject to her, and, with cruelties too great to be
described, excluded from
my home; for she was so restrained and oppressed by earthly things that
the powers I possessed were not sufficient to enable me to attend to my
own spiritual concerns. I called to
my aid the certainty of death, the fear of hell, the hope of heaven,
preaching, and all other
aids afforded by the Church; and also divine inspirations, infirmities,
poverty, and other
worldly tribulations, in order that, deprived of all things earthly, she
might, in her extreme
need, when all other resources had failed her, have recourse unto God.
But, though in her
great necessity she sometimes turned to him and promised with his
assistance to do great
things, yet when that moment was passed she returned to her accustomed
practices and I
to my prison; and this has happened many times. But now that I see my
Soul, with her
senses, and also those of the body, arrived at a point from which she
can neither advance
nor recede, I will subject and restrain them all in such a way that they
can neither impede
nor retard me. Complaints will not avail them; they will be as much at
my discretion as I
have been at theirs; but I shall not be as cruel to them as they have
been to me, for they
never afforded me the smallest help, even when I was most oppressed and
surrounded by
my enemies. I will keep the Soul in restraint and in subjection, and
inflict upon her, without
mercy, all the suffering she can bear. I have her in my hands, and I
will leave her so naked,
desolate, and forsaken, that she will know not where to turn except for
the bare necessities
which will keep her alive to suffer a yet longer martyrdom; and this
will be in secret in order
that no one may give her any remedy. Not one of her members shall escape
suffering until
my work is finished; whosoever shall behold her in such torments will
wish her dead, and
she would herself wish it if she could do so without sin.
Soul. I have heard enough of your threats, and am sufficiently well
acquainted with the
prospect of what I am to suffer; but the reason of this suffering I have
not been able to understand, although it has been promised to me.
Spirit. I mean to separate myself from you, and for the present I will
answer you in
words; hereafter I will do so more effectually by deeds which will make
you envy the dead.
You have been conducted even to this threshold by many gentle means and
divine
graces, which you have assumed and appropriated to yourself, and have
hidden them with
a subtlety of which you are not yourself aware, for they have become
your by such long use
that no eye but that of God can discern them; neither would you believe
it, did not God
himself declare it. Gradually you will come to understand by experience,
that even in the
first light that was given you, you appropriated your share, and so of
contrition, confession,
satisfaction, prayer, and other virtuous acts; of interior and exterior
detachment; of the sweet
love of God, of the alienation of the bodily senses, so that they
appeared as if dead because
they were entirely controlled by the divine operation. And inasmuch as
those works had
long sustained your faculties, and the love of God was so strong and
powerful within you,
you seemed to yourself to be in heaven, and enjoyed it all within
yourself as if it were yours
by right, and had been bestowed on you by God as the reward of your
merits. You did not
return it wholly and entirely to him as you should have done in all
simplicity and uprightness,
and in this you have been dishonest and have defiled yourself, and
therefore you must suffer
all I have foretold you. Learn what a task it is to purge a soul here
below and restore her
with no further purgatory to her pristine purity. And when it is God’s
will to elevate her to
a high degree of glory, it becomes more especially necessary, not alone
to purify her but to
make her pass through many cruel sufferings that she may gain merit by
many and grievous
pains.
When the time came which pleased God, he drew the Spirit so secretly and
closely to
himself, that it held no communication with the Soul nor the Soul with
the Body, and both
were left so bare and dry that it was hard for them to live at all, and
especially at the first,
when they were passing from one extreme to the other, although God was
secretly attracting
them by little and little. At length that befell the Soul, which happens
to a bombshell, when
the fire being applied it explodes and loses both fire and powder; thus
the Soul, having
conceived the fire of pure, divine love, suddenly lost that which had
before inflamed her,
and, deprived of all sensibility, could never more return to it. She
resembled a musical instrument which, while furnished with strings,
sends forth sweet melody, but, being deprived
of them, is silent. So she, who had hitherto with the senses of both
Soul and body, discoursed
such sweet music, now, bereft of these, remained stringless and mute.
When she found
herself closely pressed by the Spirit, with no hope of relief (for she
remembered all his
threats), she cried to God, and said:
CHAPTER X
The Soul discovers that she must make satisfaction voluntarily, and it
seems to her that
she is abandoned by God.—She calls upon others for help.—How Humanity,
by whom she
had been threatened, is put to the proof.—Of the sufferings of the Body
when deprived of
communications with the Spirit.
Soul. Lord, I see it to be necessary that I should atone for my
dishonest appropriation
of thy spiritual graces, and I begin to understand that as I have
consented to take part with
the body in sin, and have found pleasure in it, I must also consent that
it shall be expiated
by my own sufferings as well as by those of the body, and that I must
pay, even to the last
farthing. I see that I have secretly robbed thee of what was thine, and
have appropriated
many satisfactions, and delighted in many spiritual graces, without
referring them all to
thee as was my duty; namely, many sweet consolations in speaking,
hearing, tasting, and in
various other things. I perceive that this robbery was very serious,
since nothing more precious could be stolen. For these are the things
which essentially differ from all that is man’s
own. Nothing is of real value to him, except that which it pleases thee
to give him by thy
grace. Therefore it is necessary for us to comprehend that every grace
proceeds from thee,
and to thee it must be returned, if we would not be robbers: this
robbery originated with
the devil by whom we are continually tempted and by whom many are led
astray.
But how shall I satisfy myself for this great and subtle sin, since I
have neither strength
nor feeling, either of soul or body? I know not whether I am alive or
dead. It is hard to live
in this world, and yet I must both live and suffer greatly, in order to
expiate my offences. I
seem to be abandoned by the divine and through the knowledge of that
which, not to others
but to thee alone, my God, is fully known, that I would always rob thee.
Finding myself
deserted on every side, give me at least one who can understand and
comfort me, as is done
to the condemned, that they may not wholly despair.
Then God comforted Humanity somewhat, and afterwards exercised her in
that with
which she had before been threatened. The body by degrees became infirm,
being deprived
of the correspondence of the Spirit, which held the powers of the Soul
suspended and engaged, while the body remained naked, famished,
wretched, and unconscious that this was
the work of God. Hence, it rapidly consumed away and felt every slight
evil as a great
calamity, and its infirmity increased to such a degree that if it kept
the Soul intent on some
hidden operation, the body would not have been able to support itself.
Exteriorly, too, he
gave her a director adapted to her need, who comprehended the work of
God within her.
This was a great consolation, for her natural forces could not have
sustained her under trials
so great that they could neither be described by human tongue, nor, if
described, be understood. Even if witnessed by the bodily eye they would
be incomprehensible, so much greater
was the interior suffering than the exterior, and so impossible was it
for any way or kind of
relief to be found. But God now and then afforded Humanity a little
relief, and she seemed
restored, although the interior oppression was constantly increasing. So
she wandered about
the house, wasting away, and ignorant of the nature of her malady, so
subtle, hidden, and
penetrating was that divine work.
Then she was assailed in a different manner and with strange and new
afflictions, against
which she struggled with all her powers. When God afflicted the body, he
fortified the mind,
and when the mind was suffering, he consoled the body, and thus
supported each in turn.
She continued in this state for about ten years, Humanity being always
more and more unconscious of those hidden operations by which God held
her, as it were, bound.
Afterwards he took from her her confessor, and everything else towards
which she
looked for help. Then the Spirit drew her forcibly to himself, because
he, in turn, was drawn
by God with a hidden love, so penetrating and powerful, though without
delight, that it
melted into itself both Soul and Spirit, while the bodily senses, with
everything else, were
absorbed in God.
This hidden love checked, purged, and exterminated all those sins of
robbery which
had been so secretly and cunningly committed, and thus in secret the
penance was performed
while the cause remained concealed. Humanity was so oppressed and
crushed that she was
constrained to cry to our Lord in piteous accents:
“Oh, my God! how hast thou abandoned me to such cruel sufferings, both
interior and
exterior! Yet, while I suffer I am still unable to complain, for even
when I am most grievously
afflicted, I am in secret satisfied by a sharp and searching flame of
love, which is gradually
consuming all my natural and spiritual strength, so that it is most
strange to see a creature
living thus deprived of vital force. My confessor, too, is taken from
me, so that I can no
longer take counsel of him, and so weak have I become that I can turn to
nothing with any
spirit. Interiorly I find the secret strength which was given me
decaying, nor am I in a condition to receive anything from heaven, or
earth, but am left like one dead. Yet I must live
so long as it pleases God, though I know not how I can live without the
help which I am not
even able to receive when it is offered me.”
CHAPTER XI
Of the brightness of eternal glory, and of the strength imparted to
Humanity by a glimpse
of it.—How God draws the Spirit to himself, so that it may be wholly
occupied in him.—Of
its sufferings.—What it is to live on earth while the Spirit is in
heaven, and through what
sufferings one must pass in order to escape purgatory.
Towards the close of this process, God came to her aid in a different
manner. He
sometimes revealed to her a ray of that glory towards which she
approached, as the affections
of the Soul and the bodily sensations became weaker. This revived her so
much, both interiorly and exteriorly, that it supported her for many
days; for although she beheld it but a
moment, the impression, without any renewal, remained within. And she
saw that God held
her Spirit so fixed upon himself that he did not allow it to weaver for
an instant. The longer
this continued the more difficult it was to withdraw from it, the
difficulty being too great
for words to express. And this was by reason of that hidden Spirit which
found itself drawn
into greater depths the higher it ascended towards God, and continually
losing its own
strength as it became more and more absorbed in God, who thus spake to
the Soul:
The Lord. Henceforth I will not have you interfere with my designs, for
you would always
rob me by appropriating to yourself what is not yours. I will finish the
work, and you shall
be unconscious of it. I will separate you from your Spirit, and he shall
be lost in my abyss.
Humanity on hearing this was filled with consternation, and said:
“I am in misery. I do not live, and yet I cannot die, but find myself
every day more and
more oppressed, and, as it were, consuming away. When I beheld what it
was to be centered
entirely in God without a single moment’s respite, and that I was myself
the miserable
creature who was to support this siege, and how very terrible it was,
all my flesh was in torment. To remain thus steadily occupied in God,
without a moment’s wavering, is a thing
for the blessed in heaven, who, lost to themselves, live only in him.
That I should live in this
way upon earth while my Spirit is in heaven, is a work surpassing all
that I have known, and
is the most terrible suffering that can be endured in this world.”
It was shown to Humanity that whoever would enter life eternal without
passing through
purgatory, must die to this world while yet in it; that is, that all the
imperfections of the Soul
must be so consumed that she may remain absorbed in God. “But hearing
thee weep, O
Humanity! it is plain that thou art not yet dead, and thou must still
live until thou findest
life without impediment. When thy vivacity is all passed away, and thy
sensibility is weakened,
thou wilt have less to endure. Thou wilt not anticipate thy sufferings
afar off as now thou
dost, with agitation, but wilt abandon thyself to God, not through the
powers of the Soul,
nor through any instinct of nature, but purely because God has taken
upon himself all these
things, and works so secretly and subtly that he in whom the work is
wrought is not himself
aware of it.”
This God does, that man may be sensible of the suffering inflicted on
him, for otherwise
he would feel it less, and if he comprehended what was going on, he
would always be guilty
of robbery, even if he were not led to it by his evil instincts, united
to the bad habits, hidden
in the depths of his soul. But God, knowing that man could not live in
so great an extremity
if he did not provide for him, does so secretly and in various modes and
times, according
to his necessity. At first the assistance is very evident, that he may
with love persevere and
form the habit of doing spiritual works; then, by degrees, God withdraws
these supports
whenever he finds the man strong enough to endure the battle. The
greater strength he has
at the beginning, the greater suffering he may look for toward the end,
although God always
assists him according to his necessities; yet he does this far more
secretly than openly, and
never ceases but at death.
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SPIRITUAL DIALOGUES PART THIRD
Containing some questions concerning the love of God towards man,
proposed by the Soul
to her Lord, and his loving answers, the truth of which was afterwards
entirely proved by the
Blessed One herself.
CHAPTER I
The Soul inquires of God the reason of his great love for man, who is so
opposed to him;
and also what is man, for whom he cares so much.
Soul. O, Lord, when I see thee so enamored of man, I long to know the
cause of this
great love, especially as in his manner of life, man is so opposed to
thy will, estranged from
thy love, averse to thy operations, contrary to thee in all things, full
of this world, blind,
deaf, dumb, and stupid, without the power and without the means of
acting according to
thy will. I confess, O Lord, that I know not what is this man of whom
thou art so mindful;
I know not whether thou art his master or his servant; it seems to me as
if love had so blinded
thee that thou seest not the depth of his miseries. I pray thee, O my
Lord, to satisfy me fully
in this matter.
The Lord. You demand a thing beyond your comprehension; yet, in order to
satisfy your
understanding, which in these matters is weak and uninformed, I will
show you a scintillation
of this love which if you should behold clearly you could not live if I
did not sustain you by
my grace.
Know then, in the first place, that I am God, with whom there is no
change; and know
too that I loved man before I created him. I loved him with a love which
is infinite, pure,
simple, and sincere, and without any cause; it is impossible that I
should not love those
whom I have created and designed for my glory, each in his own degree. I
have also provided
him amply with all needful means of attaining his end, both with natural
gifts and supernatural graces, and on my part these never fail him. I am
ever surrounding him with my infinite
love, now in one way and now in another, that I may bring him under my
care. I find in
him nothing which is contrary to me but the free-will which I have given
him, and this I
am always combating through love, until he yields it to me, and when I
have accepted it I
reform it little by little by my secret operations and loving care, and
never abandon him
until I have conducted him to his appointed end.
To your other question, as to why I love man, who is opposed to me and
laden with sins
that are so hateful in the sight of heaven, I answer, that by reason of
the infinite bounty and
pure love with which I love him, I can neither see his defects nor fail
to accomplish my work,
which is purely to benefit him; I cast such a light on his defects that
perforce he sees them,
and doing so he bewails them, and bewailing them he purges himself from
them. He offends
me only when he puts hindrances in the way by which I am endeavoring to
lead him to his
end; that is, when he hinders me, by mortal sin, from accomplishing my
loving designs according to his necessities. But that love which you
desire to know is beyond your comprehension, for it has neither form nor
limit; neither can you know it through the intellect, for
it is not intelligible; it is in part made known by its effects, which
are small or great in proportion to the measure of love which is brought
into action.
If one who had not lost faith should desire to see the effects of this
work which is accomplished in man by that spark of love which infuses
into his heart, be assured that he would
be so inflamed by love that he could not live, for so great would be its
power that he would
melt away and be no more. Though men are for the most part forever in
ignorance of it,
yet, for this hidden love, you see those who abandon the world, leave
their possessions,
friends, and kindred, and hold in abhorrence all other loves and joys.
For this love men have
sold themselves as slaves, and remained in bondage to others until
death; and its force increases so continually that they would suffer
martyrdom for it a thousand times, as they
have often done and will ever continue to do.
You see this love transforms beasts into men, men into angels, and
angels becoming
God, as it were, by participation. You see men changed from earthly into
heavenly, and devoting themselves with both soul and body to the
practice of spiritual things. Their whole
life and manner of speech are altered, and they do and say the contrary
of what was formerly
their custom. All are surprised at this, and yet it seems good to all,
and men are almost envious of it.
But unless by experience, no one comprehends how this has been brought
about. That
deep sweet, and penetrating love which man feels in his heart is
unknown, and can neither
be described nor understood except by the light of the affections in
whose exercise he feels
himself occupied, bound, transformed, in peace and harmony with the
bodily sensations,
and without any contradiction, so that he has nothing, wills nothing,
and desires nothing.
He remains quiet and satisfied in his inmost heart, knowing this love
and knowing it alone.
He is kept closely bound by a very subtle thread, held secretly by the
hand of God, who
leaves him to struggle and combat with the world, the devils, and
himself, while fainting
weak, and helpless, he fears ruin on every side but God does not let him
fall.
The true love which you are striving, O Soul, to comprehend, is not
this, but is seen
only when I have consumed the imperfections of man by every mode of
human misery,
both exterior and interior. As for that which cannot be seen, this is my
mode of action. I let
down into the heart of man the slender, golden thread of my hidden love,
to which is attached
a hook which enters the heart, and man feels himself wounded, but knows
not by whom he
is bound and taken. He neither moves nor wishes to move, because his
heart is drawn by
me, its object and its end, although he does not comprehend it; but it
is I who hold the thread
in my hand, and draw it even closer with a love so penetrating and so
subtle, that man is
conquered and subdued and entirely taken out of himself.
As the feet of one who has been hanged do not touch the earth, but his
body remains
attached to the cord by which he received his death, so the Spirit
remains suspended by the
slender thread of love whereby all the subtle and hidden imperfections
of man receive their
death: all that he now loves he loves by virtue of the tie by which he
is bound. All his actions
are done by means of that love and through sanctifying grace, because it
is now God who
works alone, by his pure love and without man’s assistance. And God,
having thus taken
man into his own keeping, and drawn him entirely to himself, so enriches
him with his favors
that when he comes to die he finds himself drawn unconsciously by that
thread of love into
the divine abyss. And although man in this state appears a lifeless,
lost, and abject thing, yet
his life is hidden in God amid the treasures of eternal life; nor can it
be told or imagined
what God has prepared for this beloved Soul.
The Soul, hearing all this, is so inflamed by ardent love that she
breaks forth into exclamations:
CHAPTER II
Exclamations of the Soul.—Our Lord demands the cause of her surprise,
and questions
her concerning her enjoyment in the company of spiritual persons, and of
the pleasing conversations held with them.
Soul. O tongue, why dost thou speak, when thou canst find no fitting
words for the love
felt by my heart? O heart, inflamed with love, why dost thou not consume
the body where
thou dwellest? O Spirit, what dost thou, thus bound upon the earth?
Seest thou not that
vehemence of love wherewith God attracts and desires thee? Destroy this
body, that each
may go to his own place!
And God, when he beheld the Soul kindled with a flame so great and
limitless, desiring
in some measure to restrain her, showed her one spark of that love with
which he loves man,
and which is so pure, simple, and sincere that the Soul when she beheld
it was wellnigh
overpowered with astonishment; then the Lord demanded of her, saying:
The Lord. Why do I behold you thus changed? What new thing have you seen
that
kindles in you such a flame of love? Hitherto you have seemed ready to
break through the
body in order to find your love, by reason of the great delight and
sweet enjoyment you
tasted, together with many other of your friends, with whom you were
united in the bonds
of that sweet and winning love; but now I see you pausing and
bewildered, and caring to
converse with no one.
Until now this Soul had often occupied herself in conversing with her
spiritual friends
on the divine love, until it seemed to them as if they were already in
paradise. Oh, how sweet
were these colloquies! Both he who spoke and he who listened were fed
alike upon that
spiritual, sweet, and delicious food, and were not satisfied to see time
pass so quickly while
they talked, but all inflamed and burning, could neither speak nor
separate, and seemed as
if beside themselves. O feasts of love! O food most exquisite! What
delicious viands, what
sweet union, what divine company! They spoke only of the love of God, of
its operations,
and how all hindrances to it might be removed. All that took place
between them was so
clearly seen to be from God and for the benefit of souls, that no one
could think otherwise,
and hence the Soul responded:
CHAPTER III
The Soul discovers that what she had been doing, as if for God,
proceeded truly from SelfLove.—She is filled with astonishment at the
sight of pure love, and inquires concerning its
nature.—Our Lord answers her that she could not understand it, and that
he himself, being
love, can be comprehended only in his effects.
Soul. Thou hast shown me, O Lord, another light in which I have seen
that it is SelfLove which has hitherto moved me, and that all which has
had the semblance of being
wrought so lovingly for thee and in thee was self-defiled and of my own
doing, and secretly
appropriated to myself. It was hidden in me, my God, beneath thy shadow,
under which I
rested. But now that I behold thy simple, pure, and ardent love, with
its operations, I am
lost and bewildered, and all other loves seem to me worse than selfish.
O divine love, where
shall I find words to speak of thee? I am conquered and subdued by thee;
I am dying of love
and I do not feel love; I am annihilated in love and I do not know love;
I feel love acting
within me, and its action I do not understand; I feel my heart burning
with love, and yet I
do not see the flame of love.
O my God, I cannot cease to search for tokens of thy care; and although
I am wholly
overpowered by the new light which thou hast shown me, I do not yet
despair of knowing
more fully this love which, containing within itself everything that is
desirable in heaven
and on earth, satisfies man without satiating him, and even constantly
increases the appetite
which feeds upon it. It is so sweet and gentle, this pure and simple
love, and so adapted to
the heart of man, that he who has once enjoyed it, though but a little,
would never cease to
seek it, though the search should cost him a thousand lives. What is
this love which conquers
all things? Thou, Lord, hast told me many things concerning it, but they
all seem to me to
fall short; and since thou hast given me the burning desire to penetrate
it more deeply, I will
not believe that it can be in vain. Thou hast promised me a fuller
satisfaction than I have
attained. Thou hast shown me a spark of thy pure and simple love, and it
has kindled in my
heart a flame that devours me. Nowhere on earth can I find repose, nor
can I feel or see
aught beside. I am lost and beside myself; I am led captive and wounded
nigh unto death,
and wait only on thy providence, which will satisfy every one of my
desires, which is in the
order of salvation.
The Lord. O Soul, my beloved, thou art seeking to know what thou canst
not comprehend.
Thy instinct and thy desire, so far as the natural man is concerned, are
supernatural; but as
concerning the spiritual, and the end for which thou wert created, they
are natural, because
love is thy beginning, thy middle, and ought to be thy end. Thou canst
not live without love,
for it is thy life, both in this world and in the other. It is for this
reason that the desire consumed thee to know what love may be, but thou
canst not comprehend it with the intellect,
nor with the Spirit, nor with all the love thou mayest possess; even
those who are in heaven,
their home, know it only according to the measure of grace and charity
they have had in
this life.
For love is God himself, who cannot be comprehended, except by the
wonderful effects
of the great love which he is ever manifesting, and which can neither be
estimated nor
imagined. And when I reveal to the Soul but one spark of my pure love,
she is constrained
to return me that love, whose power compels her to do her all for me,
even, if need were, to
suffer torture and a thousand deaths. How much love may be infused into
the hearts of men,
can be learned from what men have done for love of me. But I see, my
beloved, that thou
seekest not this operative love in its effects, but those gentle drops
that I pour into the hearts
of my elect, and which melt the Soul, the Spirit, and even the bodily
powers, so that they act
no longer. By these drops the Soul remains immersed in the sweetness of
that love, and is
incapable of performing any action: she is lost in herself and alienated
from every creature:
serene in the depths of her heart, at peace with all, and passive, she
is absorbed with that
love, which satisfies her, without nourishment; hence she exclaims in
her ardor:
Soul. O food without taste, O taste without flavor, O flavor without
food, O food of love
on which angels, saints, and men are nourished! O beatific food, he who
tastes thee knows
not what thou art! O real food, satisfying the appetite, thou dost
destroy every other desire!
He who enjoys this food esteems himself already blessed even in this
life, where God communicates it but in the smallest measure: if he
should bestow only a little more, man would
die of that subtle, penetrating love, for the Spirit would be so
inflamed that the weak body
would perish. O celestial love! O divine love! thou hast sealed my lips:
I know not how to
speak, nor will I seek what never can be found. I am conquered and
overpowered.
CHAPTER IV
That he whose heart is pure knows the love of God.—How that love works
secretly, subtly,
and without exterior occupation.—Some of its effects.—Exclamations of
the Soul upon this
love.—Of its properties.
The Lord. O beloved Soul, knowest thou who it is that employs my love?
He whose
heart is pure and empty of every other love. When he has found it, he
remains content and
satisfied, although he knows not my mode of operation nor his own
condition; because love
works in secret and subtly, without external show.
Such a one is continually occupied, yet without occupation; he is bound,
yet knows not
who holds him, he is in a prison without an outlet. The Soul can avail
herself of neither her
understanding, her memory, nor her will, and seems like a thing
insensate, dumb, and blind,
because the divine love has overpowered all the sensibilities of both
Soul and Body. And
therefore the Soul and Spirit, finding themselves so transformed from
their wonted habit
of loving and acting, and secretly and strongly swayed by a higher love,
are constrained to
ask: “O Lord, what manner of love is this? What is this love which is
ever changing man
from good to better, continually bringing him nearer to his end, and
yet, as he approaches
it more closely, plunges him into ever profounder ignorance of his
situation?”
Man in this state is kept alive by the rays of love with which God
pierces his heart, and
which return to heaven in ardent sighs. If he did not find this relief
he would die through
the vehemence of this fire. Sometimes it so restrains him that he can
neither speak nor sigh,
in order that its work may be more quickly done; but it does not hold
him long in this condition, because he could not remain in it and live.
Then the Soul, enlightened, inflamed with
divine love, and filled with sweetness and delight, exclaims:
Soul. O love, the Soul that feels thee, begins even in this world to
possess eternal life;
but thou, Lord, dost conceal this work even from its possessor, lest he
should spoil it by
making it his own. O love, he who feels thee understands thee not; he
who desires to comprehend thee cannot know thee. O love, our life, our
blessedness, our rest! Divine love brings
with it every good and banishes every evil. O heart, wounded with divine
love, thou art
forever incurable, and dying of this sweet wound, thou dost enter upon
never-ending life.
O fire of love, what doest thou in man? Thou purifiest him as gold is
purified by fire, and
dost conduct him with thee to that country and that end for which he was
created.
Love is a divine flame: and as material fire ever burns and consumes,
according to its
nature, so in man the love of God is by its nature ever working toward
its end, and for its
part never ceases to benefit and serve him whom it holds so dear; he who
does not know its
power has but himself to blame, since God never tires of doing good to
man while he is in
this life, and has always the most tender love for him.
O love, I can no longer be silent, and yet I cannot speak as I desire of
thy sweet and
gentle operation, for I am filled with love which inspires me with the
wish to speak but deprives me of the power. Within myself I speak with the heart and with
the mind, but when
I would pronounce the words, something checks me, and I find myself
betrayed by this poor
tongue. I would be silent but I cannot, for still the instinct for
speech urges me on. If I could
utter that love of which my heart is full, I think that every other
heart would be inflamed,
however remote from love it might be. Before I leave this life I long to
speak once of this
love, to speak of it as I feel it within me, of its effects in me, and
of what it requires of him
into whom it is infused, and whom it fills to overflowing with a
sweetness above all sweetness,
and with an indescribable content, so great that for it one would
willingly be burned alive;
for God unites a certain zeal with this love, by the power of which man
disregards all contradictions how great soever.
O love, powerful and sweet, happy is he who is possessed by thee, for
thou dost
strengthen, defend, and preserve him from all ills of body and soul.
Thou gently guidest all
things to their end, and never dost abandon man. Thou art ever faithful,
thou givest light
against the deceit of the devil, the malice of the world, and against
ourselves, who are so
full of self and so perverse. This love is so illuminative and
efficacious that it draws all imperfections from their secret caverns,
that we may apply the remedy and purge ourselves
from them.
This love, which rules and governs our will, in order that it may grow
strong and firm
to resist temptation, so occupies the affections and the intellect that
they desire naught beside.
The memory is engrossed, and the powers of the soul are satisfied, so
that love remains her
sole possessor and inhabitant, and she allows nothing else to enter
there. Love exhales a
continual sweet perfume, by which man suffers himself to be allured, and
so powerful is
this fragrance that however great may be the torments through which he
passes to salvation,
there is no martyrdom he would not suffer gladly to attain it.
O love, no words of mine can express the sweetness and delight with
which thou fillest
the heart; it remains enclosed within, and by speaking it is inflamed.
Whoever hears or reads
these words without the sentiment of love, makes little account of them,
and they pass by
him like the wind. But if I could express the joy, the pleasure, and the
peace which it brings
to the beloved heart, all men who hear or read these words would
surrender without resistance. For it is so adapted to the human heart
that at its first touch it opens wide its door,
although man never can receive this celestial gift till he is free from
every other love. If the
heart receives but the smallest drop, it so earnestly desires to
increase it that it rates as
nothing all the goods of this world. With this love, man conquers the
evil habits which are
a hindrance to him, and in its strength he stands ever ready to perform
great deeds.
CHAPTER V
Other effects of love.—What it accomplishes at its will.—The work is all
its own.—Of
works wrought through love, in love, and by love, with some explanation
of them.
O love, with thy sweetness thou breakest the heart that is harder than
adamant, and
meltest it like wax in the fire. O love, thou makest great men to esteem
themselves as the
least of the earth, and the richest as the poorest. O love, thou causest
wise men to appear as
fools, and thou takest their knowledge from the learned and givest them
an understanding
surpassing all other understanding. O love, thou banishest from the
heart all melancholy,
hardness, and natural inclinations, and all delight in worldly things. O
love, thou makest
bad men good, and artful men simple. Thou dost ingeniously deprive men
of their free will,
so that they are contented to be guided by thee alone, because thou art
our guide.
O love, thine operations are alien to this earth; and therefore thou
changest man from
earthly to celestial, and, depriving him of every human mode of
operation, dost unfit him
for all earthly occupations. O love, thou dost accomplish the whole work
of our salvation,
which we neither know how to do nor are able to do without thee. O love,
thy name is so
sweet that it imparts sweetness to all things. Sweet is the mouth that
names thee, most of all
when the words proceed from a heart full of thy liquid sweetness, which
makes man benign,
meek, gracious, joyous, bountiful, and ready, so far as may be, to serve
all men. O love, when
by any way thou art able to penetrate the heart of man with thy sweet
and gracious darts, if
it be unoccupied by any other love, however slight may be thy flame, it
is powerful enough
to make him abandon all things else for thee.
This love makes every affliction and contradiction appear sweet. O love,
what sweet
quiet, and what quiet sweetness thou bringest with thee! As thou
belongest to all, the more
thou art diffused among creatures, so much the more fully is thy will
accomplished; the
more man feels and comprehends thy gentle warmth, the more he is
inflamed with desire,
and he neither asks for any proof beyond his own feeling, nor knows how
to give any other
reason for it: but love carries with it its own reason, and the will
likewise, and remains lord
of the whole man, subjecting him entirely to its will according to its
pleasure, and this work
is wholly its own; for then its operations are effected through love, in
love, and by love.
By works done through love, those works are understood which man
performs through
the love of God, when God gives him an instinctive desire to work for
the benefit of himself
or his neighbor; in this first state of love, God causes man to
undertake many and various
useful and necessary works, which he performs with a pious intention.
The works of the
second state of love are done in God; these are such as are done with no
view either to the
advantage of one’s self or of one’s neighbor, but rest in God, with no
motive in him who
does them. Here man perseveres in good works through the habits of
virtue which he has
formed, although God has deprived him of that share in them which gave
him aid and
pleasure. This work is more perfect than the other, for in that there
were many motives
which nourished both soul and body. The works done by love are more
perfect than the
other two, because man has no part whatever in them; love has so subdued
and conquered
him that he finds himself drowned in the sea of love, and knows not
where he is, but is lost
in himself and left without the power to act. In this case it is love
itself which works in man,
and its works are works of perfection, inasmuch as they are not wrought
by human power,
and are works of sanctifying grace, and God accepts them all.
This sweet and pure love takes possession of man, absorbs him and
deprives him of
himself. It keeps possession of him and continually works within him,
solely for his benefit
and advantage, and without any thought or care on his part.
O love, what a sweet companion and faithful guide art thou! Neither
speech nor thought
can do justice to thy excellence. Blessed is the heart possessed and
occupied by thee. Love
makes men just, simple, pure, rich, wise, and contented, and with its
sweetness lessens every
grief.
O love, all that is done through thee is done with ease, with gladness
and goodwill; and
though the toil be great, thy sweetness tempers every trial. Oh, the
torment of working
without love! It is beyond belief. Love gives a sweet flavor to every
viand. if it is bad it makes
it good, and if good it makes it better. According to the grade and the
capacity of the subject,
God infuses love into the heart of man.
Oh, how sweet a thing it would be to speak of this love, if fitting
words were found to
express the delight with which it fills the heart. But because the Soul
is immortal, and capable
of greater love than it can feel in this life, on account of the
weakness of the body, which
does not allow the Soul to support all that it desires, it remains ever
craving, and in this life
can never be fully satisfied.
O love, thou fillest the heart, but thou art so great that it cannot
contain thee; it remains
filled but not satisfied: by the road of his heart thou takest
possession of the entire man and
permittest none but thyself to find entrance; with a strong bond thou
bindest all the facilities
of soul and body. O sweet servitude of love, which gives man freedom and
contentment in
this life, and eternal blessedness in the other!
O love, thy bonds are so sweet and so strong that they bind angels and
saints together,
and so firm and close that they are never broken; men who are bound by
this chain are so
united that they have but one will and one aim, and all things among
them are in common,
both temporal and spiritual. In this union there is no difference
between rich, and poor,
between nation and nation; all contradiction is excluded, for by this
love crooked things are
made straight and difficulties reconciled.
CHAPTER VI
The Soul asks various questions of our Lord.—What the martyrs have
suffered for this
love.—That charity is the shortest and most secure road to salvation,
and that without it the
Soul would rather cast itself into a thousand hells than enter the
presence of God.
O sweet Jesus, my Love, what has brought thee from heaven to earth?
Love. What has
caused thee to suffer such great and terrible torments, even unto death?
Love. What has induced thee to give thyself as food to thy beloved Soul?
Love. What moved thee to send us,
what still continually moves thee to send us, the Holy Spirit for our
support and guide? Love.
Many other things can be said of thee. Through love thou didst appear in
this world so
poor, so abject, and so humiliated in the eyes of men, that thou wast
not esteemed a God,
but scarcely as a man. A servant, however faithful and loving, could not
endure so much
for his master, even were he to promise him heaven itself, because
without that interior love
which thou bestowest upon man he cannot patiently suffer any torment
either of soul or
body.
But thou, Lord, hast brought from heaven the sweet manna, this delicious
food, which
has in itself such vigor that it gives strength for every trial: as we
have witnessed frist in thee,
our most sweet Master, and afterwards in thy saints. Oh, how much they
have done and
suffered in the strength of the love infused by thee into their hearts,
and by which they were
so inflamed and united to thee, that no torture could separate them from
thee! For in the
midst of their torments a zeal was kindled that increased with their
sufferings, and by it they
were kept from yielding to the most cruel martyrdoms that tyrants could
invent. The spectators saw only the weakness of the body, but the sweet
and powerful love which God infused
into the heart, and which is so vital and strong that he who abandons
himself to it can never
be lost, was hidden from them.
There is no briefer or securer way of salvation than this sweet nuptial
robe of charity,
which gives such confidence and vigor to the Soul that she enters the
presence of God
without misgiving. But if at death she is found destitute of charity,
she is left in such an abject
and wretched condition that she would seek the gloomiest and most
wretched spot, rather
than appear in the divine presence. For God, who is simple and pure, can
receive into himself
nothing but pure and simple love; and being a sea of love in which all
the saints are plunged,
it is impossible that even the slightest imperfection should enter
therein: hence the Soul,
naked of charity when she is separated from the body (aware of her
condition), would cast
herself into hell rather than approach so bright and pure a presence.
O pure love! Every stain of evil, even the least, is a great hell to
thee, and even, by reason
of thy vehemence, mere cruel that that of the damned. None but those who
have experienced
thee can understand and believe this. This love of which I speak,
although in itself infinite,
can be described in its gracious and familiar action in the beloved
Soul, even as if it were
one with her.
CHAPTER VII
Our Lord questions the Soul concerning the love she feels and on what he
has said to
her.—The Soul responds according to her ability, but cannot express the
intensity of her
love.—She asks our Lord how the loving Soul can live on earth, and
concerning her condition.
The Lord. What hast thou to say, O my Soul, of this sweet love, so dear
to thee, which
never leaves thee to thyself, is always speaking to thee comforting
thee, inflaming thee, and
revealing to thee some new and celestial beauty, that so thy affection
for it may become
more and more ardent? Tell me some of those loving words it speaks to
thee when thou art
with it alone.
Soul. I find myself repeating certain words which are understood in the
depths of my
heart, which is glowing with an amorous flame. These words, and this
sentiment of love, I
do not understand and am unable to express, for they are unlike other
words. Love opens
my heart and is ever making such gracious communications to it that it
is wholly inflamed
and dissolved in love; yet in particular can discern neither words,
flames, nor love; the heart
is seized, possessed, and held fast by a loving satisfaction.
Yet the Soul does not comprehend this work, although she perceives that
in this visitation,
love bestows all possible caresses upon the beloved Soul that a true
lover can give when his
affection is the greatest that can be conceived. This operation melts
the Soul, detaches her
from earth, purifies her, makes her simple, strengthens her, and draws
her deeper and
deeper into its loving flame. But she is not allowed to remain long in
this great and penetrating fire, for humanity could not endure its
vehemence; yet in the heart there remains always
the impression that she is living in that love with God.
O love! thou absorbest this heart into thyself and leavest Humanity
deserted on the
earth, where it finds no resting place. It appears an exiled creature,
with no object either in
heaven or in this world.
O love, how burning and enamored is this Soul in which thou art
performing such a
work of love! I would that I knew how this creature lives upon the
earth, both as to her body
and her Soul, and how it is that she has her conversation as well with
heaven as with creatures;
I see her living a life very different from that of others, and one more
for admiration than
for edification. She sets no value upon anything: she appears like the
mistress of heaven and
the queen of earth, although she has nothing of her own; few can
understand her; she is very
free and fearless, and dreads not that anything can ever be wanting to
her; she has nothing,
and yet, to her seeming, all things are hers.
The Lord. The answer is not for men, blind and deprived of celestial
light, who having
their intellects occupied with earthly things, cannot comprehend my
words; yet, I will answer
for those who, aided by the divine ray, will be able to understand it.
My love so delights the
Soul that it destroys every other joy which can be possessed by man here
below. The taste
of me extinguishes every other taste; my light blinds all who behold it;
all the facilities of
the Soul are so possessed and bound by love that she is lost and
understands neither what
she has done nor what she should do. She is raised above herself and
bereft of reason,
memory, and will.
Creatures like these no longer take part in the things of this world,
save through necessity,
and then as if they knew them not. They are always occupied interiorly,
and this prevents
their being nourished by temporal things. God sends into their hearts
rays and flames of
love so subtle and penetrating that they know not where they are, but
remain silently plunged
in the serene depths of that love. And if God did not sometimes deprive
them of this vehement love, the Soul could not remain in the body; yet,
when he thus departs, he leaves the
Soul so sweetly occupied in him that naught beside is seen, known, or
understood. Rarely
does she remember anything but what she has felt, and until the
impression grows weaker
it is impossible for her to think of her own affairs, however pressing
they may be.
CHAPTER VIII
Of the condition of the loving Soul.—How God delays imparting to her the
knowledge of
her defects, since she could not endure it.—She has no repose so long as
she suspects the existence of any fault by which her Spirit is hindered
of its satisfaction.
The state of the Soul is this: she is very sensitive, so that her mind
cannot endure the
least suspicion of defect, because pure love cannot remain where there
is even the slightest
fault, and the loving Soul, unable to endure it, would be thrown into
intolerable pain. In
this world man cannot be wholly free from imperfections, but at times
God keeps him in
ignorance of them, because he could not support the sight; at other
times he reveals them
all; and in this way man is purified.
If a suspicion of sin falls upon this Soul, she cannot be pacified nor
at rest until her mind
is satisfied. The Soul which dwells in that amorous peace cannot be
disturbed either by
herself or by others; if any misunderstanding arises between herself and
another, she is unquiet until she has done all in her power to remove
it. And when souls habituated to divine
love are, for any cause, permitted by God to be disturbed, for the time
they are wretched at
being cast out of the tranquil paradise in which they are accustomed to
abide; and if God
did not return them to their accustomed state it would be impossible for
them to live. They
live in great liberty and take little heed of earthly things. They are
in a manner taken out of
themselves, especially as they near the close of this life, of which
they are stripped remaining
immersed in that love into which the Soul has already found by long
experience that God,
by the operation of his gracious love, has taken both Soul and body, so
that he allows them
to want for nothing.
God shows the Soul also, that all the benefits bestowed on her by
creatures (whether
spiritual or temporal) are given because God moves them to it; and hence
she learns to take
no heed of creatures, what service soever they may have rendered her,
for she perceives
clearly that it is God who has done it by the action of his providence.
By this vision the Soul
is more and more inflamed, and finally abandons herself to love, casting
aside all creatures,
and finding in God such fullness that she can regard nothing else but
him.
And although such a Soul may seem to have some affection for exterior
things, do not
believe it. It is impossible that any love should enter into hearts like
these, except the love
of God, unless God himself permits it by reason of some necessity either
of the soul or the
body. And should this occur, all love and care, coming from such a
source, would be no
impediment, and would not touch the depths of the heart; but would only
be ordered of
God for some necessity, because it is needful that pure love should be
free from every exterior and interior concern; for, where the Spirit of
God is, there is liberty.
O that we could behold this sweet correspondence, and hear those burning
words with
their joyous vigor, where one can distinguish neither God nor man, but
the heart remains
in such a state that it seems a little paradise, given by God to souls
that are dear to him, as
a foretaste of that true and glorious paradise, but hidden from all
except those lovers who
are absorbed and lost in the ocean of divine love.
O love! the heart which thou possessest becomes through peace of mind so
great and
so magnanimous, that it would rather suffer martyrdom to gain thee than
without thee to
be in possession of every other good in heaven or earth. Yet, this is
beyond the comprehension
of all who have not felt and tasted thee. A heart which finds itself in
God sees all created
things beneath itself, not through pride or conceit of self, but by
reason of its union with
God, which makes all that is God’s appear to be its own, and beside him
it sees, know, and
comprehends nothing. A heart enamored of God is unconquerable, for God
is its strength;
hell does not affright it nor heaven allure it, for it is so disposed
that it receives all that befalls
as from the hand of God, remaining with him in immovable peace, and
inwardly strengthened
and fortified by him.
Soul. O Love! how namest thou these beloved souls?
The Lord. I have said, Ye are gods, and all children of the Most High
(Psalm 81).
Soul. O Love! thou annihilatest thy lovers in themselves, and then
restorest them to a
true and perfect liberty, and makest them masters of themselves. They
wish nothing but
what God wishes and finds all things else a grave impediment to them.
O Love! I find no words to express thy benign and joyous sway, thy
strong and assured
freedom, thy sweet and gentle goodness: but all that thy true lover
could express would be
unequal to what he would desire to say. He seeks everywhere for loving
words appropriate
to that love, and finds them nowhere; for love and its effects are
infinite, and the tongue is
not only finite but very feeble, and is always dissatisfied and confused
by its powerlessness
to say what it desires. And although all that he says is as nothing, yet
when man speaks of
this love as he feels it in his heart, it relieves him that so he may
not die of love. What sayest
thou, my Lord, of this thy beloved Soul, who is so enamored of thee?
The Lord. That she is wholly mine. And thou, my Soul, what sayest thou
of thy heart?
Soul. That I am wounded, O my God, with love, in which I live joyful and
at peace.
CHAPTER IX
Of the condition of the Body, and in what suffering Humanity found
itself, living as though
dead.—How God provided for it.—Of the joy experienced by the Soul in the
interchange of
love, and how she is left like one dead when deprived of it.
As the state of a Soul enkindled and glowing with divine love has been
explained,
something now remains to be said of the condition of the body. The body
cannot live on
love, like the Soul, but it is nourished by material food. And as God
has willed to separate
the Soul from earthly things and from her body, and engage her wholly in
spiritual operations,
therefore it is left without vigor and almost without nourishment, for
all communication
having ceased between it and the Soul, without which it has no strength,
it becomes like a
Soul deprived of God, like one dead, without enjoyment, without vigor,
and without aid or
comfort. And if God should for a long time keep the Soul thus vehemently
occupied within
herself, it would be impossible in the nature of things for the body to
survive.
But God, who sees all things, provides for all necessities, and
although, by reason of the
union of the Soul with God, Humanity has little comfort, and can neither
smile, nor relish
food, nor sleep, nor take delight in the emotions of the Soul or the
sensations of the body,
nor in any earthly thing, yet God concedes it a sufficiency for the
support of its wearisome
life. And in order that every imperfection which exists in man may die
in God (while man
still lives upon the earth), God seems to open a vien and let out the
blood of Humanity, the
Soul meanwhile remaining as if in a bath, and when there is no more
blood within the body,
and the Soul is wholly transformed in God, then each goes to its own
place, the Soul to her
rest in God and the body to the grave; and this work is done in secret
and by love alone. If
you know how harassed and besieged is this poor Humanity, you would in
truth believe
that no creature suffers so greatly as itself; but because this is
invisible it is neither credited
nor understood, nor has any one compassion for it, especially as it is
endured for the love
of God. But I say (with all this for the love of God), it is necessary
that this creature should
live always as if dead, like a man hanging by his feet, who,
notwithstanding, lives. And though
it may be said, and truly, that the heart is contented, yet what
enjoyment can the body have?
Thus Humanity, no longer able to live according to its nature, appears
to me to be always
tortured and greatly afflicted. It lives, but knows not how it lives,
nor on what food. It desires
nothing, but remains in God, who pierces often this beloved heart with
darts of love so keen
that they almost destroy the body by the ardor of their penetrating and
amorous flame, and
absorbs the Soul in an obscure and hidden satisfaction from which she
would never part,
since in it she finds her own proper repose and natural beatitude, which
God often reveals
to the heart he loves.
But the body, constrained to follow the Soul (without which it cannot
live or do aught,
not being Spirit), remains during this time as if without a Soul and
without human comfort,
in almost mortal weakness, and knows not how to aid itself. Therefore in
this necessity it is
assisted by others or secretly provided for by God himself, for
otherwise this creature would
be as helpless as a little child, who having no one to care for it, can
do nothing but weep
until its wants are supplied. It is not to be wondered at, therefore,
that for creatures like this,
God should provide particular persons to assist them, by whose means all
their necessities
both of Soul and body are supplied, for otherwise they would die. Behold
how our Lord Jesus
Christ left his beloved Mother to the special care of St. John; he did
the same for his disciples,
and does it still for other devout persons; in such a manner that one
succors another both
in spiritual and temporal things with this divine union. And because
people in general do
not understand these operations, and have no such union, therefore
particular persons are
needed for such cares, through whom God may operate by his grace and
light.
Those who behold such creatures and do not understand them, admire,
rather than are
edified by them; do not judge them, then, if you do not wish to err. But
consider how besieged
and how afflicted is this Humanity, living as if without life. She lives
because God gives her
the grace to live; but by nature her life would be impossible. When the
Soul was able to give
love for love, that love yielded Humanity a certain satisfaction which
sustained it; but now,
when the Soul is deprived of all sensible and active love, Humanity is
left abandoned and
forsaken, like one dead. But God performs another loving work, so secret
and so subtle that
the Soul becomes more noble and more perfect than before, by reason of
the destitution
and the nakedness in which God leaves her, so that without other support
she rests, firm
and stable, on him alone.
CHAPTER X
How the Soul, the heart, and the Spirit of this creature are devoid of
form, and employed
in an occupation which cannot be known by their means.—That the heart
becomes the tabernacle of God, into which he infuses many graces and
consolations, which produce admirable
fruits.—That few creatures are led by this road.—Of the nudity of the
Spirit and of its union
with God.
The Lord. What will you do, O Soul, thus naked and despoiled? What will
you do, O
heart and mind, which are both so empty? How is it with you in this
state, before unknown
to you?
Soul. I know not where I am; I have lost will, understanding, memory,
love, and all enjoyment; I can give no reason for myself, and am lost,
and can neither place myself nor seek
or find any other thing.
The heart and the mind of this creature being deprived of all the ways
by means of which
heaven seemed to make an entrance, now exclaim: We are absorbed in an
operation too
subtle and secret to be made known by us, but in that occupation a
loving and ethereal
spirit is hidden and restrained which fills the whole man so entirely,
that Soul, heart, mind,
and body, every bone and nerve and vein, are overflowing with it, so
that all are absorbed
with such a secret and concentrated force, that every sigh struggling
from the heart is felt
interiorly as a vehement flame. But the body, unable to endure the
action of so powerful a
flame, grieves, yet finds no words to express its grief; the mouth is
filled with burning sighs
and amorous conceits, which rise from the heart, and seem ready to break
forth in words
powerful enough to break a heart of stone. But they find no utterance;
the true and loving
colloquy is going on within, and its sweetness cannot be conceived. The
heart is made the
tabernacle of God, into which, by himself and also by others, many
graces are infused, which
bear in secret wondrous fruits. This creature has a heaven within
herself.
If such as she (and they are rare in this world) were understood, they
would be adored
upon earth; but God hides them from themselves and from all others until
the hour of death,
at which time the true and false are made known. Oh, how few creatures
are conducted by
this road of secret and penetrating love, which keeps both Soul and body
in such subjection
that it leaves no imperfection in them, for pure love can comport with
none, however slight;
and it perseveres in its sweet action in the Soul until it purifies her
entirely, so that she can
reach her proper end without passing through purgatory.
O Soul, O mind, bound and imprisoned in that divine flame! who could
comprehend
that beauty, that wisdom, that amorous care wrought in you by divine
love and for
love—those colloquies so sweet, so loving, and so gracious—and not feel
his heart melt
within him, though it were harder than a stone.
O love! thou art called love until all that love is perfected which God
has infused into
the heart of man, in which he rests inebriated and immersed until he
knows no longer what
love is; for then it becomes Spirit and unites with the Spirit of man,
so that he becomes
spiritual. And the Spirit, being invisible and inscrutable to all the
powers of the Soul, man
is conquered and subdued, and knows no longer where he is, where he
should be, nor
whither he should go. But by reason of this secret and intimate union
with God, there remains
in the Soul a sweet impression, so firm and assured a satisfaction, that
no torture, however
cruel, could overpower it, and a zeal so ardent that a man, had he a
thousand lives, would
risk them all for that hidden consciousness which is so strong that hell
itself could not destroy
it. O Spirit, naked and invisible, none is able to lay hold of thee, by
reason of thy nakedness!
Thy habitation is in heaven, albeit with thy body thou yet remainest on
the earth. Thou
knowest not thyself, nor art thou known by others in this world. All thy
lovers and thy
kindred who are in heaven are known to thee only by virtue of an
interior instinct implanted
within thee by the Spirit of God.
O that I could find words fitting to describe that gracious friendship
and that vanished
union. Vanished, I say, because so far as man is concerned he has lost
completely all expressions, that is, of love, union, annihilation,
transformation, sweetness, softness, goodness;
has lost, in short, all forms of speech by means of which the absolute
union of two separate
things could be expressed and comprehended, where nothing remains but
one pure Spirit,
active, and simple, and incomprehensible.
CHAPTER XI
Of the secret means used by God for the purification of man.—Of the
loving care he takes
of him.—How he sweetly leads him by love, and does not allow him to work
for his own advantage.—That true nakedness of spirit cannot be expressed
by words.
O sweetest, my Lord, in how many hidden ways thou workest in man when
thou desirest
to purify him by means of thy most pure love, which removes all rust
from the Soul and
prepares it for the most holy union with thee! Oh, vast and happy
country, unknown to
wretched mortals, but for which they were created by God!
O infinite God, how is it possible that thou shouldst not be known and
loved by him
whom thou hast made capable of knowing and enjoying thee, unless solely
by reason of the
little taste and feeling which by thy grace thou hast bestowed upon him!
For, if in this world
man possessed thee, he would leave all things beside.
O Lord, what loving care thou takest, day and night, of man, who knoweth
not himself,
and much less knoweth thee, although thou lovest him so much, seekest
him with such diligence, and waitest for and bearest him with so much
patience, out of thy divine love!
Thou art that great most high God of whom we can neither speak nor
think, because
of the ineffable supereminence of thy glory, wisdom, power, and infinite
goodness: and all
these thou employest in the service of man, who is so vile, but whom
thou wouldst make so
great and worthy; and therefore thou art ever luring him with thy love
because thou art
unwilling to force the free-will which thou hast given him. Thou drawest
him to thee by
love, and desirest that he consent to thee through love. Thou workest in
him by love and
with thy love. Thou wouldst have the whole man act through love, that
so, without thy love
he might do nothing. Thou, who art our God and Lord, hast disregarded
thine own ease,
both of soul and body, that thou mightest save man; and thou willest
that he also should
disregard all ease of soul and body that he may do thy will: and this
chiefly because thy will
is our best good: but this, by blind and miserable man is never
understood.
I have not spoken well of the nakedness of the Spirit. It is because
there are no words
by which this nakedness might be expressed, and the soul which finds
herself in that condition
has in her mind a fulness, a repletion, of which she knows not how to
speak: and yet by
reason of the vehemence of her emotions she is forced to speak, and in a
language more
fitting than she is aware. This language is like the ink, black and
unseemly, and yet by its
means many thoughts are made plain which could not otherwise be
understood.
Alas! if man could comprehend what it is that the mind feels in such a
state, these words
would indeed appear to him dark and unseemly. What, then, are these
hearts and tongues
to do which cannot utter their thoughts? So secret and hidden are they
that to him who feels
them it seems impossible that he should find any who can understand, and
much less express
them. Will he then remain silent wonder? No, for he is unable to be
silent, finding his heart
ever more inflamed by the marvelous operations of divine love, which God
increased day
by day within him, and which bind him so closely by the invisible chains
of love that Humanity can hardly endure it, more especially when it sees
the madness of men, who are so
wrapped in exterior things that they neither know, conjecture, nor
comprehend this divine
operation. But God loves us so much that although he sees us so blind
and deaf to our own
advantage, yet he does not for that reason cease to knock continually at
our hearts by his
holy inspirations, that so he may enter and make therein tabernacles for
himself into which
creatures can never enter more.
CHAPTER XII
Exclamations of the Soul upon the blindness which creatures offer to the
love of God.—Of
the secret operations of God in man, arousing and admonishing him with
love.—The Soul
inquires concerning this work, and desires to know what grace is, and
what is the ray of love.
Alas! how few and rare are they in whom God abides by these operations!
O God, thou
retainest thy love within thyself because thou canst not infuse it into
creatures so occupied
with earthly affairs.
O earth, earth, what wilt thou do with those whom thou dost so absorb?
The Soul lost
and the body corrupted, all things are lost in infinite and incredible
torments. Reflect upon
this, O Soul! Reflect, and no longer lose the time and the power which
are now given thee
to escape all danger; thy God is now gracious and propitious to thee. He
is very anxious for
thy salvation, and is ever seeking and calling thee with measureless
love. The operations
which God is continually working on our behalf are so many and great,
that they can neither
be recounted nor imagined: but all the good which he has done to us, is
still doing, will do,
and desires to do, will result in our condemnation and our confusion if
we fail to cooperate
with him in the time which we so undervalue.
Soul. Show me, O my Lord, if it please thee, how thou dost work within
man by thy
secret love, in which he is taken captive by thee, not knowing how, nor
understanding in
what manner, but only finding himself a prisoner of love and greatly
satisfied.
The Lord. I move with my love the heart of man, and with that movement
give him light
by which he sees that I am inspiring him to well-doing; and in that
light he ceases to do ill,
and struggles with his evil inclinations.
Soul. What is this movement, and how does it begin in man, who knows not
of its existence and asks not for it?
The Lord. The pure, simple, and boundless love which I bear toward all
men, impels
me to grant him this grace, to knock at his heart, to see whether he
will open and give me
entrance, that so I may make my abode there and banish all things else.
Soul. And what is this grace?
The Lord. It is an inspiration which I send him by means of a ray of
love, with which I
give him also the instinct of love; it is impossible for him not to
love, and although he knows
not what he loves, yet he learns it by little and little.
Soul. What is the ray of love?
The Lord. Behold the rays of the sun, which are so subtle and
penetrating that human
eyes cannot behold them without losing their sight; such are the rays of
my love which I
send into human hearts, and which deprive man of all knowledge and all
delight in worldly
things.
Soul. And these rays, how do they enter into the hearts of men?
The Lord. Like darts directed at this one and at that; they touch the
heart in secret, inflame
it, and make it heave with sighs; man knows not what he wishes, but
finding himself wounded
with love can give no account of his condition, and remains lost in
wonder.
Soul. And what is this dart?
The Lord. It is a scintillation of love which I infuse into man, which
softens his obduracy
and melts him as wax is melted by the fire. I give him also the instinct
to refer to me all the
love which I infuse.
Soul. And what is this scintillation?
The Lord. It is an inspiration sent by me which sets on fire the human
heart, and so ardently and powerfully inflames it, that it can do
nothing but love. By its power man is kept
constantly intent on me, and is continually admonished by it within his
heart.
What this interior inspiration is, which works so secretly, cannot be
told in words. Ask
of the heart which feels it. Ask of the intellect which understands it.
Ask of the mind filled
with the operations which God effects by means of it, for the least
conception that can be
formed of it is that given by the tongue. God fills man with love; he
draws him to himself
by love, and by its force enables him to overcome the world, the devils,
and himself; but
man cannot understand this love nor put it into words.
CHAPTER XIII
That love cannot be comprehended, and that the heart filled with it
lives content.—Of the
great mercy which God shows man in this life.—That his justice becomes
apparent at the
moment when the Soul leaves the body and passes to its destined
place.—That the Soul can
find repose in God only.
O my heart, what sayest thou of this love? What kindest thou? I say: My
words are an
interior jubilee, but they have no appropriate utterance. Neither by
exterior signs, nor yet
by sufferings (although endured for the love of God), can this love be
made comprehensible;
he only who has felt it can somewhat understand it. All that can be said
of love is nothing,
for the further one advances, the less he knows; but the heart, filled
and satisfied, seeks and
desires naught else but what it feels. All his words are heartfelt,
glowing, and delightful, and
so penetrating and in such subtle harmony with that which inspires them,
that they can be
comprehended only by those whose hearts are also united with God. God
only comprehends
them fully; the heart feels but understands not, and the work is that of
God alone, while the
benefit belongs to man. But the intimate, amorous relation which God
sustains with the
heart of man is a secret between him and the heart.
The Lord. O Soul, what hast thou to say touching this operation?
Soul. I find my will so strong and my liberty so vivid and so great,
that I fear no impediments between me and my object, and in it I rest
content. My intellect is greatly enlightened
and daily becomes more calm; daily are manifested to it things so new
and processes so delightful, that it is satisfied to remain ever thus
employed, and seek no further since here it
finds its rest; but it is impossible for it to explain these operations.
The memory is satisfied
to be employed in spiritual things, and can with difficulty recall any
others. The affections
which are natural to man are overshadowed by a supernatural love, which
alone satisfied
him, and makes him desire no other food, since in it he finds all that
he requires. And yet
man can render no account of the way in which he is conquered by an
operation surpassing
all his powers.
What more shall I say concerning this work of love? I am forced to
silence, yet have an
instinctive wish to speak, although I cannot speak as I desire. Let him
who wishes to experience these things abstain, as St. Paul commands,
from every appearance of evil. Whenever
man does this, at once God infuses into his soul some gift of grace,
which he increases with
so much love that the man is lost, absorbed, transformed, and
overpowered. And however
difficult it may appear to abstain from evil, no one would allow any
hindrance to prevent
him from doing everything for God, who could see the readiness with
which he comes to
the help of man, and the loving and watchful care with which he aids him
and defends him
from his adversaries. But when man has once entered the straight road,
he learns that is is
God who works all that is good in us, by his gracious inspirations and
the love infused into
the Soul, which acts without hindrance by reason of the satisfaction
which God mingles
with lll her toils. It is enough for man not to act in contradiction to
his conscience, for God
inspires all the good he would have us do, and gives the instinct and
the strength for it,
otherwise man could do no good thing. For this God gives all the
facilities and the means,
so that he enables us to do all things with pleasure, even those that to
others seem the greatest
penances.
O how great is the love, the kindness, and the mercy which God shows to
man in this
wretched world! Justice is made known afterwards at the moment when the
soul leaves the
body; then, if she has not to undergo purgation, God receives her into
himself, where she
is transformed by his burning love, and thus transformed remains in him
forever. At that
moment also she goes to purgatory or to hell, if there is aught within
her to be purged or to
be punished: this is accomplished by the divine decree which sends each
one to his own
place. Every one carries within himself his own sentence, and is by
himself condemned. If
souls did not then find the places ordained for them by God, their
torments would be even
greater, for they would have violated the divine order; and as there is
no place which his
mercy does not visit, when they are within his order, their sufferings
are less than they would
otherwise be. The soul was created by God for himself, and is governed
by him, and it can
find no repose but in him alone. The condemned in hell are in the order
of God through
justice. Could they be outside of it they would be in a still greater
hell by their violation of
the divine order, which gives them the terrible instinct to go directly
to their appointed
place. Elsewhere their sufferings would be redoubled, and therefore they
go thither, not indeed that they may suffer less, but impelled by that
supreme and infallible decree of God,
which cannot err.
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